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in the midst of exam prep

2008-04-16T23:42:00.002+08:00

i dreamt of grandma two nights ago..we went on a holiday tog..and fact is, ive nv been on a holiday with her..no regrets or anything, just a pity..i dont think i ever regretted not spending more time with her..all along it was a sense of i wish she was still around..when she fell ill i hoped she would recover..just to see me graduate in a years' time..that was my grandpa's wish..then i hoped she cound get well so that she can see me turn 21 and in time to come see me marry..but i guess that's the way life is..no too bads, no such a pity, somethings just happen the way they do and somethings just dont happen..

of all times, im blogging now..and its kind of totally random..i think i get pretty random during exam prep period cos im just stuck at home all day, with books, coffee, lappie and me..and online shopping..haha. exams pls be over!

all the best for exams everyone!

happy vday!

2008-02-14T00:00:00.001+08:00

happy valentines' day kaihong! love yu(:

last of 2007

2007-12-29T00:21:00.000+08:00

each time i visit my blog and see the same page over and over again, i ask myself why i managed to let my blog stagnate for so long..one entire sem..was i that busy? maybe..but i think its cos i tend to blog abt happy stuff..not that nth happy has happened this sem but i guess more of the opposite have happened..and each time i do get the urge to blog..these issues complicate my thoughts and i just cannot seem to put what i initially intended to express into words..even words fail me..now i wonder how i sustained myself this sem if even words have failed me..haha.

people say good things will come after a series of misfortunes or ill luck..i would love to believe this saying. i would love to regain the courage and faith to wish for sth..

i know one should nv be self-centered, shld nv be disillusioned by one's problems and worries such that one thinks his/her problems are the greatest. That would be grossly small-minded. One should not brood over his/her misfortunes and fail to realise how insignificant and minute one's problems may be once compared with that of others. But in small singapore, i think tts what ppl tend to do. or maybe not just in small singapore. shrugs. ok what has this gotta do with our country i wonder..im just drifting..see what i mean by i just lose the ability to connect my thoughts when things begin to clog up in my puny brain.

So, i choose not to complain and rant abt what has happened to me and the ppl arnd me..i wish..i just wish i can find the faith i used to have in myself, in everything..the optimism that used to accompany my thoughts. i dont even dare wish for anything in specific or anything real anymore. I'm afraid of being disappointed even just for the last few days of 2007.

ok now i sound like an attention-seeking emo crap. eergh. that is why i nv really blog abt unhappy stuff. rarrh.

sometimes i look back and gosh, it still feels so surreal..her name and number is still in my speed dial..i can still remember so vividly how she would sit in her chair, her smile, her voice..

i shall try to organise my pics and post up some pics of this second half of the year..how time flies..2008 is beckoning..whether it is for the better or worse..

oh yes, alvin and the chipmunks are utterly adorable..pls catch the movie..

and kh can drive now! woots!

hope everyone had a great yuletide season and is all set to usher in the new year! Cheers!

the season of giving

2007-12-07T22:40:00.000+08:00

It indeed hasnt been a very good start to my holidays and well, my loved ones and myself have had rather heavy hearts of late..so with the season of giving just round the corner..why not spread some love this festive season to bring some warmth to others and live the true spirit and meaning of christmas..I am very proud of kh for making such an effort for his good friend, Wei Cheng..pls read on about a worthy cause kh is initiating..

Dear Netizens,

My name is Kai Hong, a close friend and dragon boat team-mate of the late Wei Cheng. I am sure by now, you have heard of the tragic accident in Cambodia 3 weeks ago.

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/314549/1/.html

I am honored to have had the opportunity to row with Wei Cheng in both SAFSA as well as the National Team. He was a dedicated paddler who worked hard to reach his goals. This eventually earned him a place in the National squad, despite his lack of prior experience in the sport.

While participating actively in dragonboat, Wei Cheng dedicated much of his remaining time to giving tuition in order to contribute to the family's income. From a tender age, Wei Cheng and his brother, Wei You, have been raised single handedly by their mother, who is currently sourcing for a job with the help of relatives. Wei You recently re-took his 'O' Levels and is hoping to enter a local Polytechnic with his grades. He will be working part-time to bear some of the family's financial burden, which his brother had so painstakingly bourne these few years.

I understand that most of you have probably attended the recent wake and have already given "white money" to the family. However, with the "season of giving" just around the corner, I'm trying to arrange for a second round of donations for the family, hoping to offer what aid we can to help mother and son tide over this extremely difficult time. No obligations here. If you feel that you have given as much help as you could, it is ok.

After some discussions with Wei Cheng's cousin, we have jointly decided that cheques would be the most efficient method of facilitating these donations. Even if you are unable to write a cheque, I hope you can approach your parents and see if they would like to extend their help in this. My team-mates and I are organising this to provide an avenue for those who wish to extend their aid to the Chee family, but do not know where and how.

You will have my assurance that all donations will be documented, and that the FULL proceeds will be handed to Mdm Chee. We are doing this for we believe that Wei Cheng, being the filial son that he was, would not want his brother and mother to have to bear the weight of his departure.

For those who would want to donate a substantial amount to the family, please either reply to this message,contact me at kee_heng@hotmail.com or 96461072. Details on how to donate will be disclosed to you privately. I hope to be able to collect all donations during the 3rd week of this month, which is 17th to 22nd December 2007.

I'm not sure of the response to this, but I thank you for reading this, and hope we can all do our part to help the family.

Yours Sincerely,Chian Kai Hong

cherish

2007-12-01T21:39:00.001+08:00

word of the month..it begins with c!

no, not christmas..

..cherish(:

clearing cobwebs

2007-10-21T02:21:00.001+08:00

woah..time to clear the cobwebs in here! haha.

well well, happening 2months ive had and what do yu know? exams are here in less than a month..yet again..sad-ded.

too many things happened and i cant possibly update abt everything here..as such, i will not be updating at all since it just sucks to only know some and not the rest doesnt it! haha what a convenient excuse for my laziness..

anw, i applaud myself for making a change! haha. what change i shall not say yet..soon soon(: its a nice change tho..good change..i like! heh.

gatherings!

2007-08-10T14:44:00.000+08:00

some pics from gatherings and outings i recently had during the last week of hols!

met up with the mg girls at myra's house..turn out was GOOD and saw alot of ppl i had nv seen since dunno when! haha. played taboo again..haha. seems like we keep playing that game..then manda and i tried to teach them the tuki tuki foc game but for some reason it just cldnt be played properly with them..haha. but it was a great laughing session..turned out so hilarious the way we played the game..

carnage outing to sentosa on sun! BUT i was the only lireal person there..the rest all pangseh! but it was still fun nonetheless..played vball for quite awhile..first time i actually got to play in a beach vball court..den played ultimate frisbee and eventually nua-ed under the shade and played cards..haha. fuN!(:

random shots!

big group shots!

oh yes! carnage freshie tay weiyang has been nominated for the hey! gorgeous show on channel u! everyone pls go vote for mr smiley face! he's from hc too so hwa chongians reading this pls go support him too(:

http://u.mediacorptv.com/hey/

search for him under NTU!(: go go go!

my 20th bday!

2007-08-10T14:04:00.000+08:00

i feel old! finally hit the big 2 on tues..haha. IM 20!!! BUT got diagnosed with THE pox on mon..first day of school..heh. unfortunate but i guess i can be grateful it came at such a time..give me a good rest before gg back to sch again as i nv really got any proper rest dancing throughout the hols..a good time to reorganize my life before getting my life back on track to begin the semester..and its the first week of sch not as many lessons so i guess im lucky to get it now before the workload starts piling up..however, just afraid cant catch up after missing a week of dance..esp the finale..its worrying me alot now..pat has done blocking and abt 3min plus of the finale..dunno if i'll still get to do it..and to do it i will definitely hafta go for prac on thurs but tts the night of welcome tea..oh man..i dunno how to make a decision between the two..i have a greater responsibility to fufill towards iic since im part of the main comm but ohman..confused!

OK back to happier stuff..tho i had to be confined this bday..never felt more loved by the ppl arnd me..indeed an unforgettable bday..

dear surprised me close to at midnight by calling me asking me to look out of my window..haha. i saw the big 20 he had did with light sticks immediately then he was like oh shit..haha. he wanted me to see him standing at the bball courts waving the lightsticks in his hand..asked me to come down..so as such..i went towards bball courts right away cos i thought i was suppose to go towards him..but actually i was suppose to follow the lightsticks at the landscape garden which were suppose to lead me to the big 20 where my present was..but eventually of course i went to the 20 cos dear was nowhere in sight..and i found a fossil paper bag there! dear bought fossil watch for me!!!!(: didnt believe he would really buy..he said maybe he'll buy for me when we walked into the fossil shop that day then he asked me which one i liked..been wanting a fossil watch for so long and i didnt believe him when he said he'll buy for me! wahahha.so happy! THANKS DEAR!(: dear came over to my house the next day which was the day of my bday to accompany me at home..long time since dear and i spent such time tog..dear really v nice to me throughout this period im confined at home..and he knows im v worried abt having scars and all the spots appearing on my body and face..esp those few pock marks on my face..but he always listens to my complains and reassures me..nv getting irritated by me or wad..very grateful i have this boy with me..BEAMS(:

present from dear!(: LOVE IT!

and that wasnt the end of the night! my fav babes from HAGS paid me a midnight visit too! with a choc and cheese cake from tcc!(: surprised me right at my doorstep..abby called me saying she was at my door..and i didnt believe her cos like they didnt know my exact address wad..but really she was outside when i looked thru the peephole..but when i opened the door..even huan and germ popped out! sang bday song for me with the cake in their hands..first time my frens have done a midnight surprise for me..like appearing at my doorstep at the stroke of midnight with a cake and bday song! and that was exactly wad happened! i so happy and touched..tho i cldnt eat the cake but i really appreciate it babes! LOVE YU BABES SO MUCH!!!(:

DEAR! HAGS! yu guys have no idea how yu made my day!(:

and of course, thank yu everybody else for your well wishes..thank you all for remembering..it really made my bday so much more enjoyable..esp when i was stuck at home..im being an obedient girl recuperating at home and abstaining from food im not supposed to eat..hope i'll recover real quick and i'll be back in action in no time!(:

updates - kbox with carnage

2007-08-01T00:47:00.000+08:00

part 4 - kbox .first carnage outing.

had first carnage outing last thurs..made my way down after dance to join the rest..nv sang with so many ppl in a room before..like 30 over! haha. met peiling and tzeyuen to go get cake for bday boy weiyang first..

W for weiyang!

then surprised him with the cake..haha.

all of us!

great outing..and carnage has good singers! chio literally sounds like he's a cd..except that he shakes..haha. and yongcheng sounds like li sheng jie..and roy sounds like jj lim..haha carnage so talented..two more outings lined up! woots!

part 5 - hippo tours

so we found out that roy is a tour guide with hippo tours and is preparing to get his tour guide license..if he passes his exam in august..he'll be the youngest licensed tour guide in singapore! carnage is full of talents seriously..so sharon, ching, shan, clare and me decided to sit in on one of his heritage tours last fri.. boy, does he sound professional..if yu shut the face out..yu wont be able to recognise its him..and sounds just like a professional tour guide..and suddenly he seemed so much older..haha.

nbsfoc '07

2007-08-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

part 3 - NBS FOC '07 .carnage.

after a yr in sch im now a senior, though reluctant i may be..it almost seemed like just yest that i was the freshie playing all the games during foc..but of course, joys of being senior too..genuinely felt happy seeing our freshies bond and witness the friendships formed amongst them..just mere acquaintances during precamp at esplanade and now all part of a big family!(: and the appreciation yu get from your freshies for the things yu do also quite warms my heart..dont expect me to go down to the nitty gritty details of the entire camp but it was a whole new experience for us seniors as well i believe..not just the freshies..really different when yu become a senior..we'll do things to make sure freshies enjoy themselves and have fun to the fullest..can bowl ppl like anything also nvm cos we seniors have their back..and of course the lum nua SAs' fav activity of the camp just has to be filling water for the freshies..ensuring their constant supply of water..haha. and to everyone's amusement we even had lum nua cheer and song..of course, our freshies were great too..we had pretty girls and suave dudes..haha. always being a good sport and on the last day i was really feeling like..wow im actually a seniors..rocks(:

CARNAGE(:

.the day lireal only had ourselves to depend on and we did great.

updates - brewerkz

2007-08-01T00:19:00.000+08:00

ok part 2! trip to clarke quay brewerkz with boyfriend!(: first time kh and i were gg for clarke quay with each other..haha. and since lyanna works there..we kinda went to visit her as well..and were suppose to get staff discount through her but too paiseh to ask in the end..wahaha. the food there is alright..i had shepherds pie..which was good..but abit ex..i mean usual clarke quay pricing..dessert was a disappointment tho..wasnt fantastic..oh yes, tried the german ale..their most popular beer there..suppose to be easy to drink and smooth..but i didnt like it that much..i thot still quite difficult to drink..corona still nicer(: then dear and i played the seaweed game..hai dai quan..loser drinks..haha. rather funny cos we were playing with just one hand and like moving only our wrists..heh.

mysterious kh, pufferfish germ & our food!

us!(:

long overdue updates! - ndp

2007-07-31T23:28:00.000+08:00

okok! finally some updates..its been so long i dont even know where to start! shall look at my pics and see wad has happened over the past weeks..haha. oh and big shit..school's starting in a week's time! pulls hair..

ok i shall update in parts..so first up! long overdue ndp combined rehearsal pics!

before, during and after the parade..look at the greedy boy eating from before til after the parade..haha!

myriad of umbrellas all around me before start of parade..amusing..

they had silly things like these..ppl standing there with signboards pretending to sing, in place of the real performers who werent there..rather hilarious..

fireworks! i think this pic is rather nicely taken..by yours truly of course..haha. come to think of it..dear and i have watched fireworks every single yr arnd this time since we got to know each other..sweet(:and i met weilynn, alicia and line on my way back! so shocked to see them and i havent seen that tongster in years!

outing with hags

2007-07-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

met up with hags last thurs for lunch at xinwang cafe and to discuss our timetable! all four present finally..cos dear huan has been so busy earning moolah..haha.

yummy food!(: im feeling hungry just looking at the pic now..haha.

huan has been posing liddat since we knew her..haha!

went ndp prepreview with ckh last sat! he was rather sian the first half of the parade..seemed like he can fall asleep anytime..haha. then later on when the sky turned dark it became my turn to want to fall asleep..heh. wasnt super spectacular..everything is almost hte same..with a smaller floating stage..not that it moves but ya its on the water..there were speed boats..defence displays that could involve the water vehicles..oh shit..this is like spoiler entry..haha. ok i shall stop..umm yea then the duh thing..did marina wave instead of kallang wave..funny.

we were rather hungry after that so walked over to marina sq for coffee club..yumm(:
and im lazy to upload the pics..so that'll hafta wait..haha.

had dance prac just now..we learnt like 2mins of choreo in 3hrs..dies. my mind is so saturated..wonder if that's why im having a headache now..anw mel said im the kind who'll shrink into my quiet little corner and disappear on stage..my steps are all correct and all but i need to dance it..said i can but need to explode..dunno if its good or bad..i'll choose to think that i have some potential? shrugs. maybe that explains why im not really in front alot of the times for blocking..cos i go unnoticed most of the time anw..oh wells.

past few weeks...

2007-07-06T01:24:00.001+08:00

woah..finally some updates abt mylast few weeks..haha. been seriously too tired and lazy..shall post pics and do some commentary on the way if i feel like it..i want to sleeppp.

a few weekends back, kh and i went to..

my first time there and i learnt that..

haha. kh and i were so busy testing out our cameras that day so took plenty boliao photos..heh. i kinda like the place..and the food..well must eat selevtively la..some nice some not..like their wanton mee..total disappointment..noodles like rubberband liddat..haha. when i told kh the noodles tasted like rubberband he asked if i ate rubberband before..faints.heh. i love the iced yuanyang tho!(:

caught the show eye in the sky after that..rather short show but ok la..good enuff..haha. talking abt movies, i have yet to watch transformers..was initially not intending to watch but it apparently is not bad it seems..haha.

went clubbing with maggot, manda, myra and their bfs. had fun but only stayed inside for 2hrs and we kinda paid to enter cos it was a fri night..but poor maggot was feeling pukish la so yea nvm la..anything for a good fren..haha.headed for bah ku teh instead..the soup was nice..haha. and i tried half a flaming lambo that night..shared with dear..first time and i kinda felt abit dizzy after that drink..haha shrugs. nevertheless it was lotsa of fun on the dance floor and great seeing the 3Ms again..haha. we hafta meet up soon to play taboo!! heh.

went k box with dear too..after such a long time..great time with dear..was thinking how i didnt dare to sing properly in front of dear last time cos i was still shy..heh. sweet memories..

then went for my first tv recording last sat to support Zesture boys at their PSC dance finals and they emerged second! great work there and they are so freaking rich now..haha.

Lastly, went to support dear at singapore dragonboat festival on sun! they did great and got 3rd in the 10men event. dear is v happy and i too am happy for him..his first real medal that he earned with his blood and sweat from safsa..PLUS he's lost a great deal of weight and got me gushing over him quite a number of times recently..heh.

my most brilliant pic with the addition of my picasa skills..haha. nice? dear loves it(:

oh no! the aspirin man stirkes back!and i think my nostrils look somewhat like dear's in that pic..haha.

now for a very cute vid! dear told me abt it..so totally a bimbo in the making..an awfully cute one..haha.

and one last thing.
im damn hungry.
craving for KUISHINBO.
let's go before watchin ndp prepreview this sat dear!
haha YES dear manage to get tics for us to go watch.and there WILL be fireworks this sat.
YAYNESS(: thankew dear!

germ is..

2007-06-27T01:07:00.000+08:00

germ is trying to plan her timetable but cant seem to ever get a four day week.
germ is feeling like she has alot of things to be done.
germ is wanting to complete the things she has to do but feels kinda lost.
germ is tired.
germ is always wanting to blog but nv getting down to it.
germ is thinking abt alot.
germ is a conservative girl.
germ is trying to readjust her mentality and realign her thoughts.
germ is trying to figure out what is really for the best.
germ is just a simple girl,who wants a four day week!

pics!

2007-06-15T01:25:00.000+08:00

some pics!

went wm with dear last sunday..watched ocean's thirteen which was rather good..enjoyed all three instalments of the show..unlike pirates..first one nice then the subsequent two found it rather draggy..yupp. still havent caught zodiac..i wanna watch!but apparently its not showing at many cinemas..hmm. oh yes played arcade at wm too..haha. hadnt done that in quite awhile..finally once tt dear didnt go play his aeroplane game and i just sit there look cos i lose v quickly for that game and dear is really v good at that game..played those skating and water ski kinda games where yu hafta stand on the thingy and jump and swerve arnd..haha. and played tennis too..haha fun fun(:

here's little boy chian playing water ski..haha. cute(:

met up with maggot last thurs at jp..she brought her lappie to show me pics and dance vids..makes me feel like the life of a singaporean student is so boring compared to one who goes overseas..its really a new experience and i think a v memorable one..or maybe its just my life tts boring la..cos i only had dance pics and pics from my china trip to show her..or maybe i havent been taking enuff photos..haha.

kh says i look like a secsch kid here..haha. i think so too.

met up with alicia on tues..went bugis walk talk shop..haha. had billy bombers for dinner cos dear maggot was on a diet when we met so didnt wanna eat that with me..haha and alicia hadnt eaten that before! so we just had to have that..haha. the cookies n cream milkshake was heavenly i tell yu..so yummilicious! we both had the gargantuan(ok fine im exaggerating..haha.) burgers and we both couldnt finish..heh. and we still bought the jap ice cream to try after that la..cos we both hadnt tried it before..and we figured it wouldnt do much harm since the sesame flavour we got is low fat..haha.self-consolation and deceit. had a great time..cant wait for a huge mg gathering!(:

yet another cement ice cream..but i like! haha cos black sesame ice cream is simply superb..this one is much nicer than the previous cement ice cream i tried. oh my im getting hungry again..hee!

and alicia bought percy pig for me! heh. i was looking thru the packaging this morning i realise the pigs act look kinda scary..haha.i wouldnt dare look at them when i eat..just put the whole thing in my mouth..tho alicia said diff ppl eat it differently and attack diff parts first..like those teddy bear biscuits we used to eat in pri sch.haha.

friendster and facebook

2007-06-11T01:34:00.001+08:00

ok so ive been back from china for a week plus alr..i'll upload pics soon..

been having dance prac on most weekday evenings, gg out with dear, meeting up with friends..

caught shrek3 and ocean's 13 with dear..last week, dear and i decided we would both eat at foodcourts everytime we go out cos we always end up eating alot when we treat ourselves to nice food each time we go out..and we always do treat ourselves to nice food..haha. so we're both trying to eat less now..cos we realise we always eat the most when with each other..actually tts wad dear realised while i was away in china..heh. so far, its been quite successful(: today, while we were walking to coffeeshop..dear suddenly told me actually he likes to see my get angry kiddingly but not when i really am mad..haha. sweet(: and just now boyfriend gave me a facebook tutorial on the phone cos i just got facebook and extremely blur abt alot of things..spent my time adding frens and groups after i got off the phone with him..haha.

met up with maggot last wk too! she's finally back from ireland and the chair gang is gonna have a gathering at maggot's house soon! yay! cant wait! looking at the pics everyone uploaded on facebook and all the hilarious comments just made me miss those times so much..and boy, was i one chubby ( a nicer word for fat) mg girl..haha. alicia is just back too! gonna meet up with her soon! hopefully next week..yay.

oh yes, did yu all see the sunday times today abt the chen sisters who have 16,000 friends on friendster?? i found it absolutely ridiculous esp reading the things that the sisters said in the papers..the elder sis said sth like 'ppl like me enuff to add me..unlike ppl who have 50 views per month and only 100 friends.' how can anything liddat come out of a 21-yr-old's mouth! its unbelievable! is she naive or wad! not that i wanted to contribute to the 10,000 views per month these girls were enjoying but i just had to see wad kinda pics and vids they put up of themselves..indeed, the younger sis posts many glam shots of herself and forever has inches of thick makeup on..skimpily dressed in some suggestive pics and vids she takes of herself..honestly, her elder sis' acct pales in comparison to hers..haha. just dun get it how girls these age can still think having more online friends means they're real popular and everyone wants to be their friend..they only know less than half the ppl they have on their lists..i mean, are they seriosuly that shallow!

interesting stuffs

2007-05-20T16:37:00.000+08:00

some stuffs that amused me last week..

CEMENT ICE CREAM!!!

actually its just black sesame ice cream that i ate with kiet..haha.

COOL BUS!!!

actually its the nokia music bus..got onto this 156 from hc bus stop when i was gg to meet dear at clementi..haha. the interior of the bus was red, music videos playing throughout the bus, white cushy chairs and leather seats at the rear of the bus! woots! cool stuff(:

i'll be off to china in less than 12hours! nv been to china in my life! haha. hope it'll be fun..heard shanghai is good to shop and has lotsa great food..but flying off when dear's just back from malacca:(

our 3rd year together!(:

2007-05-20T15:09:00.000+08:00

friday marked the the start of my third year together with boyfriend!(: we celebrated with a wonderful night tog on tues..all planned by the man..haha.

at first dear told me he was bringing me to jewel box then after that he said he booked somewhere else cos he wanted to leave jewel box for our birthdays..and he said he had to book the new place online and they'll only reply 2-3 days later with a confirmation and he had picked the menu himself! so of course i was thrilled cos nv heard of any dining place liddat! so we took the train to outram park station after meeting and since dear told me we werent gg to jewel box anymore..i ruled out harbourfront station and thot we were gonna go to clarke quay..haha. so i was excited cos ive not been there with dear..then as we approached the platform..dear turned left to wait for the train to harbourfront..then i was like.."so we're gg vivo issit??"still excited i trooped into train with dear..

when we arrived at harbourfront..dear walked towards the cable car side instead of vivo..

germ: we gonna take cable car AGAIN? *jumps arnd a little and asks like a little girl*
chian: dunno..*shrugs*

germ: yay yay yay! *beams*

so we took the cable car to mount faber..and funny thing was i didnt even know we were headed to mount faber..haha. i thot we were gg sentosa..it was only after we got off then i realised..eh..this place doesnt look like sentosa then i asked dear if this place is mount faber..haha! stupid me! and dear even pointed and told me "there..that's jewel box" and i still thought we were heading to sentosa..heh. then i started getting v hyped up seeing the new surroundings and the decorated cable car on display..

germ: are we gonna eat on the cable car? we are right! we are we are!

chian: dunno..

haha seems like dunno was all he could say that evening..so we sat arnd waiting to embark on our sky dining experience! took silly pics and checked the place out..so in fact, we were still eating from jewel box kitchen cos food is prepared there..haha dear bluffed me..we werent the only ones having sky dining..there were abt 10 couples having sky dining and we were no7..so finally it was our turn! hopped onto the cable car where our first course - tomato soup with garlic bread was waiting for us onboard..they even provided a fan in case we were feeling hot..haha. how it works is that the dinner consists of three courses - soup, main course, dessert and coffee/tea..each course is served at the start of each round the cable car takes..beginning at mt faber, harbourfront, sentosa, harbourfront and back at mt faber again. i was so hungry i finished the soup by the first or second stop of the first round..haha! and we caught sunset tog on the cable car! (:

round 2, we had our main course - chicken for boyfriend and fish for me(: nyum nyum..

round 3 was apple strudel and roses!(: dear ordered a bouquet of three roses for three years for me! so happy cos dear hadnt given me flowers for quite awhile alr..AND dear wrote me a short little poem on a little card with a collage of our pics on the flip side..tho he said he felt bad cos i gave him three things i still loved the card cos dear hardly writes me cards and does handmade stuff cos he always says his handwriting is ugly..haha. that's why i really cherish and love what he wrote me..dessert plus roses plus poem plus my sweet boy was the sweetest way to end off the sky dining experience..i had such a wonderful time with yu dear up up up in the sky! hee.

took the cable car back to harbourfront centre for ice cream and went to harry's for a drink and fish and chips..haha. i think the dinner really wasnt enuff for us..tho we felt momentarily full on the cable car..heh. and that was a memorable and special night i will never forget(: i love yu dear..thanks for everything..

excited!

2007-05-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

im gg somewhere nice with boyfriend to celebrate our third year tmr! somewhere where the menu for the night was specially chosen by him..excited! i wonder where he'll take me tmr tmr tmr! (:

spideyyy

2007-05-09T00:44:00.000+08:00

yay i caught spidey 3 last wkend with dear and his class! love that movie..spidey's my fav marvel action hero..heh. had dinner at village at heeren with dear before that..i insisted on having the real thing - marche, few days before that when dear wanted to have village but eventually i decided as long as i get my rosti it doesnt matter..therefore i finally agreed to eating at village..haha. didnt get to try the crepe dear recommended tho..shall try it next time(:

my fav action hero is spiderman and dear's is batman..so we were kinda having a mini battle in the cinema..haha. like we would use our fist to bish bish bish and bash the other person's face gently..then i would use combo move..haha. so funny..conclusion was batman KO! spidey wins! hee.

i think the movie was not bad but instead of having three villains i think shld have delved deeper into maybe just two eg venom and the new goblin..like the struggle within harry was rather touch and go i was expecting much more..and venom died..how can..so little bit on venom only..think they should have developed the plot more and could have done away with sandman lorz..instead of so many villains but each story behind the villain only abit here and there..

hmm..sometimes i think i struggle with being true to myself and acting in another way for the sake of it..i know my heart says i dun actually wanna do this but i do it cos of other reasons..but im glad i havent actually done sth liddat yet..thankfully cos i think it'll just be a vicious cycle..i dunno..is insisting on fairness just a plain waste of time cos life isnt as simple as plus and minus? shrugs.

random

2007-05-04T01:22:00.000+08:00

i suddenly thot of sth..boyfriend said sth cute today..he asked me if im ok with him keeping goatie..haha.now that i think back..it was rather unexpected of him to ask..tts why i find it sweet..somehow..its just a positive feeling that makes me wanna smile back at him..haha.just a nice feeling(:

pictures galore!

2007-05-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

alrighty..here's some overdue pics that ive finally gotten my hand on..our v last presentation during our very last tut..so we decided to go all formal with the blazers and everything..but my hair was rather messy i realise..heh. in any case, i think some of the pics are rather hilarious..heh.

the group.

the cheesy group again.

hags(:

germ and abby love me(: but auntie huan is fighting with me over a bargain that i beat her to..roars!

and finally..the classic unglam pic..

the office ah lian! heh.

kays, enuff of pics..now now..was suppose to meet huan and ching yest like after one entire year of saying we'll go out..haha. but i fell ill so the outing was postponed til ching comes back with goodies for us from taiwan!(: met germ and abby in the evening to get huan's pres and make her shoe..yes we literally used our blood and cockeyes to exchange for that..with the sewing and needles..then the two germs each carried a shoe home..to be reunited the next day..haha.

so today, klunch was postponed as well and we just met for a simple lunch at pepper lunch..bought huan a bday muffin from mrs fields and presented her with ther new shoes and necklace! woots! didnt get a pic of the shoes but i so wanna get down to making a pair for myself as well! heh. hope yu like the stuffs we got for yu babe! (: after lunch loitered arnd til dear's trng ended and met at ps..then walked arnd orchard..and this boy's been getting pretty tempted by highend stuff nowadays..

anw before we left town had a drink at starbucks..where we started talking cheem stuff..heh. one really cant have the best of both worlds huh?yu gain some, yu lose some..tts just parallel with the belief that nth in this world is really fair..therefore, one cannot have his/her way all the time and ya..i guess just cant cling onto too many things..food for thought i suppose after this conversation..its confusing..everything is this world seems confusing..wish i could simplify everything..and then things will be out in the open and so much easier to figure out..humans just love to complicate matters dont we? or are things really that complicated as it is? see wad i mean? haha. just random thoughts..

alright tts all for now! til my next entry! tata!

WHEEE!!

2007-04-28T01:12:00.000+08:00

big shoutout to boyfriend!
yu have been most supportive and encouraging this past month..being my little father making me study and also offering me a listening ear..past month would have been worse without your encouragement and understanding..thank yu dear! and now, i can finally have time for yu(: though yu'll be busier but i'll be understanding and supportive like yu were..right now i just cant wait to see yu and have a decent outing with yu..its been close to 36 months..haha. i love yu(:

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yes yes! exams are finally done with and time to play!!!!!
went for lunch at kenny rogers with the girls and then shoppingg!!!! wahahaha. didnt buy anything but just enjoying the company and city hall air..haha. met mom after she knocked off and cos queues were all so long at the eateries we ended up have yakun bread and coffee for dinner..heh. yupps shall post pics after i get from abby cos mine are limited..enjoy your hols everyone!!!(:

results for KH101

2007-04-12T19:01:00.000+08:00

alright this will prob be my last post till after exams..didnt exactly start revision as early as i had planned to..oh wells anw so much for the attempt at an artistic poetic emo whatever post previously..haha but i think the msg got across right?

so yeps, long overdue updates abt dear's 20th bday! yes, kh101(:

had KUISHINBO for dinner..really ex man..but so worth the money..seeing dear pile his plate with salmon sashimi, i knew i had brought him to the right place! he went for a few rounds of piles of salmon sashimi..haha. i think just the salmon itself had him having his money's worth alr..heh. SHIOK. the chawanmushi was heavenly as well..no wonder huan still had cravings for it a few days after she had eaten there..haha. DAMN NICE. dessert was good as well..macha ice cream, choc fondue (which i skipped), little fruit tarts, mochi, chocs, haha. wow..i was just feeling bloated like a fish but typing all this is making hungryyyY!!!! heh.

[greedy faces and cheekballs!]

after that went SKY GARDEN cos it was conveniently next to kuishinbo. not bad, somewhere new to look at the world from up there..camwhored and tried to act artistic..haha funny.

[that's my wallpaper(:]

caught TMNT later on..dear's fav turtles..haha. was a relaxing movie la..but plot was thin..i mean just take it as a cartoon la then its alright and entertaining enuff..i still havent caught 300 which i think has ceased screening..i always always miss all these epic movies..gladiotor, troy, what else..i dunno..loads of them..i think boyfriend can list them to yu..haha.

so all in all was a great evening with boyfriend and i think i passed kh101 with fllying colours! heh. just happy to be able to see my dear smile..the excited glint in his eyes seeing the pile of salmon sashimi..haha.

anw done with all my projs and i hope we do real well for course work for ob..lotsa effort and this was a really creative group i had..i really see how yu get to learn more abt ppl when yu work with them..their good and not-so-good qualities..yu become better frens, yu understand each other better, yu become more psychic..haha. even if there are disagreements..it all blows over and really, yu lose nth..but only gain a deeper understanding of the frens yu've worked with and learn things off them..projs were hard work but great fun! thanks abby, germ, huan, yeefoong (in alphabetical order..hehe.)! havent gotten the pics of us in formal with blazer and all from abby..haha. we were camwhoring after everyone left the class..we minus yeefoong the man. haha. shall post them after the exams..really feels different dressing up and wearing formal..altho at the expense of our poor feet hurting from heels..haha.

alright folks! study hard! and for those who do not need to worry abt exams..play hard! (:

for yu..

2007-04-08T10:02:00.000+08:00

the mask,
ive worn it too

when i get too weary
i shed it,
in front of you

my sweet escape,
into a land where i can find myself-
my true self.

now, the tables are turned.
i am reaching out,
out to you.

will you hold onto my hand,
as we journey together?
to the wonderland,
where we'll always have each other.

in our land,
there are no masks.
just you and me,
where you can pour out your heart.

im here for you,
i'll always be.
i promise you this,
baby, smile for me?

kh101 greetings

2007-04-01T14:05:00.000+08:00

for 30th march 2007:

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY KAIHONG DEAR!

love yu(:

stay tuned for updates..

KH101

2007-03-24T15:24:00.000+08:00

KH101

been working really hard for this module..its due next sat! hope i'll do really really well for it..aiming for an a or even a+..highest ive gotten so far is a- for comms management..heh.

had ob case study presentation where prof praised our group and said we did a good job! well done guys..so glad we did well..first presentation wearing formal and it feels rather good..look and feel pro..haha. many more deadlines to come..jiayou everybody! (: and i must must do well for kh101..HAHA.

drained.

2007-03-09T01:08:00.000+08:00

past week has been the most draining and tiring one for me..schoolwork and dance..not even much time for boyfriend..recess week was just a prelude..

been practising everyday for danceworks comp and really hope we get thru to finals tho chances are uber slim..but after all the hard work we put in really hope we get in..and its the first comp im joining with the mj ppl..hope it'll be good..hope we'll be good after all the effort we have put in..we girls will definitely be super sad..but im glad we girls have managed to bond and help each other out(:

as a result i havent had much time for my work..been caught up with preparing for quizzes, completing projs and meeting deadlines..but im so fortunate to have understanding friends..thanks babes for everything..if yu all ever read this..the "are yu ok?"s and encouragement..love yu all(:

and of course my baby(: he's been the most understanding throughout this tough period..encouraging me and reminding me not to waste time..sometimes gently lecturing me when im being lazy and listening to all my rants over the phone..i know past fews days our conversations have been mostly abt my dance and schoolwork and me..thanks for putting up with me dear..really really blessed to have yu dear..boyfriend is the best(: heh. thanks for being so so supportive..when the going gets tough i see your lovely msges and i feel so so touched it sometimes makes me wanna cry..thanks for keeping me strong..wldnt have been able to handle all this without yu(:

haha this is kinda like a thankyou entry..cos i figured noone would wanna hear me complain abt my life..actually its fufilling to be busy with wad i like but yea..its hard to juggle that with alot of other things..its the people arnd me and in my life that make it that much more bearable..im a lucky girl(:

dear's bday is coming soon! i have it half planned out but havent started doing anything..oh no..better go hunt for his present too..heh. i want dear to be so so happy(: dear's db comp is coming soon too too too..he support me of course i must support him too..bert! i support yu too!(: oh dear has basic theory test tmr too! oh man dear has so many many things too..i support yu even more dear! thnk ive been a not-so-good gf..oops. last outing i had with him was to bugis..oh yes now i remember..it was a good good outing..stayed out late and caught just follow law..rather funny..had good dinner at sketches(: miss spendin time with dear..my frens as well..this wk go back to school also no time to really eat with the babes or kiet..

ok off to bed! (:

the year of the pig!

2007-02-16T00:40:00.000+08:00

the year of the pig is coming! haha. finally my hell week is over and i can enjoy my cny holidays thought i still have assignments due next wed..it nv ends it seems..when yu've cleared a handful of deadlines..another few surface..faints.

yesterday was valentines day and today is total defence day! HAPPY VALENTINES AND TOTAL DEFENCE DAY TO ALL! haha. anw this yr's vday was a simple one for me..exchanged presents with the HAGS - huan, abby and germ..haha and sadly due to the numerous things i had to complete, kh and i didnt exactly go out celebrate vday or wad la..maybe the carnivore dinner previously was the celebration..anw so yea it wasnt any fancy grand affair this year..felt different this yr without dear arnd and without the usual hussle and bussle arnd school with ppl buying flowers and all for each other..miss those days in jc and mg..they even had a vday board where ppl coould purchse little hearts and pin up their notes on the board..and i rmb kh pinned a note for me at all four corners of the board..sweet(: school was so different before..but my dear had nights out and he took train halfway round singapore from yio chu kang to boon lay to surprise me! callled me while i was mugging for acct quiz and so i was kinda stoned when he asked me to come downstairs..but was really very glad to see him cos was missing him..then we had dinner at coffeeshop before he walked me back home and headed back to camp..was a different vday this yr but nonetheless memorable and made me feel so loved(:

thank yu dear for making the trip i really appreciate it..looking forward to our next vday tog(:

and im finally gonna get to perform..next fri in school but dunno the exact venue and time..dont even know wad im performing for..haha.

last sat had cny dinner at maria's house with 63 ppl! great to see everyone again..but shortie was missing..haha. had good food cooked by maria's parents..quite a spread and it was nice eating homecooked food..like so cosy..haha. after that our attempts to play game swere unsuccessful so we just sat arnd the table and talked..abt uni, army and i cant rmb wad else..haha. and gbj still laughs the same way..was like jacking him almost the whole time..some things nv change..haha. and our class still tog after a yr..v glad(:

i think my thoughts are quite disorganized..haha. jumping from yest to last sat and now back to tonight!

had dinner with peishan and germs at canteen13..peishan left for project then germs and i decided to go check out the rooftop of adm..and guess who we met there? a frog..haha. just when we were abt to climb the stairs up we saw mr frog there waiting for us..must be germs frog prince..haha. at first reached rooftop thot nth really fantastic cos abit too dark like cannot see anything..then after we looked down towards the inside of adm and saw a couple dancing at this platform that reached out into the fountain..i dunno why they were dancing there cos they were dancing like separately..tho on the same platform a distance away from each other..haha. anw then germs and i were imagining if a guy were to do sth for us at the platform like surrounded by the fountain..i think it'll be rather romantic and sweet..then she was saying on the the rooftop also if a guy put candles and all decorate the place also v romantic..haha. then stoood there talked for quite awhile..was v windy and could see stars..i see stars i happy(:

so yea cny is here and time to collect red packets again..have a great holiday everyone!(:

first february

2007-02-02T01:22:00.000+08:00

change must come from within or not at all

haha sth i picked up from ob readings but sth i think is very true and applicable to our lives as well..yupps.

alright! so yea its been four weeks back at school..been busy with work, dance but of cos still making time for boyfriend(:

sth new to mark the start of 2007..abby and yuhuan nominated me for nbs face and ya its kinda like a mini beauty pageant in my opinion except in our own clothes and a fatty with weird way of walking trying to catwalk on stage..THAT'S ME! haha. have nv done anything liddat so its an experience for me..eventually got second but cdlnt have done so without the support of my frens cos its kinda a popularity contest la..v lucky my frens were there to support me and auntie enuff stick star stickers nonstop for me..haha. so like at least wont lose too terribly la..THANKS PEEPS! (: too bad we cant so sakae tho..cos my money reduced by half..haha. DEAR! of course didnt forget abt yu..yu were vvv supportive as well!! which was great..helped me feel more confident of myself..its great to be doing sth with such great support from boyfriend(: xie:P heh.

yupps. been practising for danceworks which will be sometime in march..thats the prelims..hope it'll be a blast really..just like how i had such fun with the mad peeps 2years back..i do recall our pracs and the wonderful time we had tog..the sense of togetherness, the great laughs, prac in fbt shorts and not cargoes like now, working towards a common goal and helping each other along..still trying to find these now..when cs taught us the girl steps and we had to try to be sexy..i kept being reminded of how zhiwen could do the girls steps better than us last time and how he tried to transform us into sexy naughty mes..haha. how i miss all that! but now that pracs are getting longer it finally feels more like dance..compared to when previously we only had one hour sessions with patrick weekly..tho its quite exhausting really cos prac is always on the night before my hell long wed..my weds are like packed to the maxx..lessons from 830-1830 with an hour break in the midst of all that..and piano after that at night..haha. im determined to pass my piano this time..nods. like superrrr determined..

okays. finally my long planned trip to vivo with boyfriend materialized last sat!(: we shopped abt for awhile and i finally explored the other side of vivo that i previously didnt really know existed when i went w mom..i just knew vivo was bigger than that! haha. and we finally ate CARNIVORE!!!! hot stuff man! this a cheaper and in my opinion better version one than the one at sixth ave..it serves brasil churrascarria..i think tts how yu spell it..its like buffet style and the ppl go from table to table cutting the meat for yu..i find the meat here nicer than sixth ave and service better too! and more commoner la..cos sixth ave alot of rich ppl and foreigners so yea..nice nice! everyone shld go try try try! so glad kh really enjoyed to food..he's happy when he gets good food and its buffet style..hehe:P right dearrr? wonderful time with baby at vivo(:

this afternoon before dance had lunch with abby and germ..talked abt relationship stuffs and abby and i tried to help germ with her econs..haha. both so rusty but abby still managed to figure out and i eventually understood as well..germ has a tortoise her roomie bought for her called slow..just like her..haha.huan was sick from her expired peanut butter..haha. we wanted to buy porridge up to visit her but she was sleeping la so didnt..heh. get well soon babe! and for to everyone who's not feeling well..

i can finally smell the weekends(:

carnivore@vivocity

-the different faces of mr kh-

welcoming 2007

2007-01-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

alrighty so here's my first post of the year..which will sum up my past year and begin the new year(: this is gonna be a long one..

well the past year has been one of new experiences..first job, new friends, new school, and also dear and i went thru a whole new phase..yea the dreaded army days..im glad to say i rmb more of the good feelings generated thru these experiences rather than negative ones..and i somehow stopped writing in my pen-and-paper diary..lazy i guess..haha.

im happy my parents are now treating me more like an adult..i see the difference in the way they speak to me and try to explain things to me nowadays..esp after i entered uni..im so thankful for the extra freedom and trust they have given me and i hope our relationship will continue to improve..

im glad im still pretty much the same germ that everyone knows despite having gone thru my first sem in ntu..ppl usually say one changes during uni esp the beginning cos one is suddenly being treated like an adult in school..everything is so flexible and vastly different from jc..one meets many different kind of ppl and yea..ppl just change..im glad im still good ol' germ..ive learnt alot tho..its really up to ourselves to hold fast to our principles and make good of our time in uni..self discipline is of utmost important and i guess im still lacking in that..

im most glad that entering ntu and a whole new way of life has not changed much between dear and me accept that the absence is i guess making our hearts fonder..and i think also we have learnt to be less dependent on one another..or maybe that's just me cos i think im the more dependent one..haha. often i reminise abt schooldays where i saw dear almost everyday and we would go home tog..we seemed so young last time..now with army and uni..we seem older and mature..and the innocent days seem to be a thing of the past tho we arent actually that old ourselves..i think its the uniform that made us seem liddat..haha it must be..somehow those days were different..dont get me wrong..im still so ever in l0ve with berty now..and childish retarded and hilarious acts still persists..hehe. i think tts the key to us keepin it alive and strong(: dear's been really great to me the past year..really appreciate it darl!

it seems like awhile ago that i was still revelling in post-a level madness and wasting my time away cos another 6long months of break was awaiting me..but now school uniforms seem distant..i see ppl in sch uniforms and i feel old..half a year into uni and yea i guess im still wasting my time now since its the hols but the start of a new sem is beckoning and i hafta start feeling guilty for wasting my time away again..i always find that sch terms are an endless cycle of lessons, work, lack of sleep, commitments and more work..yu just cant seem to rest with a peace of mind tho yu've finished your day's work cos yu know it just doesnt stop there..oh wells the thought is depresssing..but i must say the past year was a very fruitful one and i hope the next will be too..ive learnt numerous things abt myself and ive learnt to cherish my loved ones even more and not take anyone for granted..so now onto my new year resolutions!(:

Resolutions for 2007

To be less rude to my parents and more understanding towards them. To communicate better with them so we can get mad at each other less. I wish for more love, peace and harmony at home.
To be a more sensitive and independent girlfriend. I wish for berty to be truly happy.
To keep in touch with friends.
To achieve better grades. To be more diligent, disciplined and focused.
To exercise more regularly than i am now and eat healthily.
To be more independent, decisive, self-confident and less naive as a individual generally.
To think before i speak.
To have faith.

that's all my tired mind can think of now..2006 was an extraordinary year..hope 2007 will only get better!

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now let's review wad ive been up to recently..

xmas eve eve - had dinner with kh and his parents at siam kitchen. went jem's house for xmas party where there was fun and merlions..heh

xmas day - a day well-spent with dear..had lunch at the village..a really sumptous and filling one i must say..then watched death note 2 at ps..it's damn good! everyone must catch it! ate some toast at toast box after the movie. it was so much fun finally having a day out and shopping with dear after 5weeks! everything fell into place once again and our lives resumed to the norm..it just all felt right again..im so glad(:

lireal steamboat - shopped at bugis with ching in the afternoon before heading to yifeng's house for steamboat..and my first ride on the lrt! the door sure is scary..closes without warning and ching almost got cut into half..damn..haha kiddin!

new year's eve eve - went bugis with dear and shopped arnd..walking and talking cock acting silly..haha. found a shirt that has mickey doing one of dear's fav expressions which i can do soooo well(: and dear bot a superman tee for his daddy..after that met kh's parents at novena for jap food dinner..like each plate of sushi costs 99cents but they earn on the other alacarte stuff and drinks..they dont even provide complimentary green tea! not bad tho..but its the try once then will only come back after a long time kind..

new year's eve - was spent at home painting the ceiling with my parents..haha talk abt family time..heh. anw did sth interesting which was to catch a movie with my mom! haha. my mom cant even rmb the last time she watched a movie..i think it was with me in prisch..starwars episode 1 if i didnt rmb wrongly..was that released when we were in pri sch? i cant recall..miracle she didnt fall asleep as she thot she wld..it was great..i enjoyed the show and the experience..heh. yupps..hope i can spend the last few moments of 2007 with dear the next time round!

kks im tired from painting the ceiling and there's still summore to be painted tmr..haha. shall go sleep now..happy new year everyone! with a new year comes new hope..gear up to take on the new year peeps! (:

-pear loves yu(:

the boy im missing..

2006-12-17T01:39:00.000+08:00

the hand that i havent held for a long time..

the one whom i havent walked beside (literally) for a long time..

the boy i havent had fun with for a long time..

the boy im missing..look carefully..its the one behind..haha.

let's see..what's he up to now..hmmm oh so THAT'S what he's been busy with??

haha yes..that's my boy whom i simply cant wait to spend christmas with! (:

pictures again

2006-12-17T01:21:00.000+08:00

i think tallie's dad didnt hold the button long enuff so i didnt get the pic with tallie in my cam..and he's really tall..i think my head was only at his armpits..haha. yea like the top of my head..seriously..heh.

pictures

2006-12-17T00:58:00.000+08:00

weeks without dear..

2006-12-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

so its been a rather busy week..a contrast with my previous sian week..super tired now tho..fri shall be my rest day..haha.

last sat went for officer commissioning parade to watch joey, tallie, jeremy, peter and when there we also found weidi, yuhang..yupp. my dressing was like how off la..didnt know it was so formal..actually i felt it was like dear's tekong pop except their in their no1..haha. but yea it was grand and some parts of the parade was diff like them marching up the stairs kinda into the audience and the many songs they had to sing..haha. tallie was in clear view and we cld see him laughing as he was singing the chinese song..then tallie later told me he could hear me saying i can see him laughing and he had to look away from us to prevent himself from laughin further..haha. didnt know i was so loud..thot they were damn far away..we cant even see their faces clearly..only when they did march past then cld we see them and be sure who was who..haha i think we were quite noisy cos kept shouting their names then they all cannot tahan smile as they march past..haha. so after that we went down to take photos with them..literally running from one end of the parade sq to another..saw a coupla frens too..nette, bel, sara low, yuhuan and jiayi, sharon..sharon was like sitting beside me la..haha. yupp so yea i still cant forget the lobster in the buffet hall which i didnt get to eat..omg..the lobsters looked so good..haha. headed to jp and had dinner at billy bombers with shortie ying cach jiayan pixie..yupp. stuffed to the max mans but cookies n cream milkshake was terrific as usual(:

sunday was an afternoon out with my parents..haha finally after endless weekends spent at home due to preparation for exams..

mon headed to sch super early to reg for electives..was kinda blur at first cos cldnt add wad i wanted cos it clashed with my original timetable..anw tts done and i must say im a traditional girl who prefers filling in paper forms and sending them in to online registration and bidding stuff..its just such a bother and sends everyone into a frenzy..cant imagine next yr when i hafta play the 'fastest fingers first' game..eergh. the thot of it just frustrates me..watched happy feet with kiet after that..haha. had heard mixed reviews of the show so was a little unsure when watching the show but it turned out to be so NICE! i like the show so so much! i like baby mumble and the whole dancing and singing penguins thingy..like a penguin musical..their way of speaking and rapping and dancing and actions are so human-like..like when rapping the penguin has his flippers moving like how rappers move their hands arnd too..like the "yo yo" actions..and i like how the songs overlap and ya its just nice! i think the soundtrack's great shall try to get my hands on it..and the dance are really so real..like they do krumping, waves as well..haha! and the amigoes are real entertaining..they're like from the black neighbourhood so cool..haha. i think dear will like them too..haha. came home and was surfing the web for happy feet pics and all that night..haha. after that we headed back to school for this wine appreciation workshop we signed up for..it was enriching, entertaining and amusing in a way..i guess..haha. thot i knew abit abt wines but after the workshop realise wad i knew was really superficial..so yea good learning experience but i seriously dun think i'll do that in restaurants..like how we were thot to taste wine..gargling and letting air into our mouth and all..heh. paiseh la and abit unglam..and they had finger food like celery, carrot, cheese, crackers and bread for us to clear our palate after tasting each type of fine but kiet and i were hungry and greedy i guess..maybe the greedy part is just me..haha. so we kept eating and eating and eating..esp the cheese..haha. even ate the cheese with the crackers..went back jp billy bombers again for dinner..at first we were just supposed to have dessert but the walking prior to dinner made us hungry and we ordered 2 main courses and dessert..haha. kiet and i coucluded we ate a shocking amt of cheese that day..cheese from nachos during the movie, cheese during the workshop and cheese for the burger during dinner..haha. wad a long day i had..

-mocking bird is playing on perfect 10 and im reminded of dear..

yest went school for icube rehearsal..im involved in registration..went home for dinner, changed and left house for nbs bash at momo..its quite a flop i must say..the place was so empty at first and we sat at the couches playing animal game..heh. then talked to class babes awhile and took some pics with abby's cam at the bar and in the nice toilet with gold glittering seats and the six pact guys on the cubicle doors..haha. we were simply self entertaining..played a game of pool with yuhuan and i..then went back to look for og ppl..ppl only started dancing at 11 if im not wrong..tts normal for regular clubbing but considering this is a bash that opens for entry at 9 i guess its not a good sign..so yea the night was quite sian..yu can actually see the dance floor when dancing and it was not packed at all..so much free space..left at 1..music was getting much better as well but no choice la cos of icube opening ceremony early the next morn..if not may have stayed..

so i slept for barely 4hrs and had to climb outta bed to go school for icube..had to wear office attire..haha sth i'll hafta get used to..the only things on me today that are mine are my heels..haha. shirt skirt both not mine..guess i better go buy some for myself..yea had piano just now which funny as it sounds put me in a good mood..and now im back home again..

wow been almost 4weeks since ive seen dear..wonder if i'll take sometime to recognise him when we meet..i have not forgotten how he looks like of course but maybe he looks diff like hair and all after almost a month..cant wait to see him..hope we get to enjoy our last 2weeks of the yr..glad he's taking it well in camp..looking forward to spending the festive season with my boy..still haven gotten him his well deserved present tho..haha.

yes yes maybe ive bored yu with my monotonous life..but im simply in no mood for anything other than narratives tonight..night!

the land of yellow tshirts

2006-12-07T00:51:00.000+08:00

well im back from the land of yellow shirts..haha. cos many (in fact many is an understatement) thai ppl were wearing yellow shirts in celebration of their king's birthday..well im pleased with the amt of history i picked up fom this trip..this is their longest reigning king who has been on the throne for 19years..its this king who managed to stop ppl from growing poppy plants and selling opium to make their living at the Golder Triangle..he bought scores of land so these opium farmers could grow and sell apples instead..but soon the cheaper apples sold in china made this trade unprofitable and these farmers soon went back to growing opium..so he then bought summore land so these ppl could rear bees instead and that has since elimintaed the problem..therefore this king is the most respected king for the thais..and the previous thai king was actually a thai chinese..he sat on the throne for 16years and everntually they ceased his rule so that the thais could takeover else thailand would probably be called chinaland..all these came from the tour guide from the half day city tour i took..haha. the most ive learnt from a trip to bangkok..of course there's lots more..

so yea did shoppin as well..first time i go for a real shopping trip as i nv used to be a shoppin person..bot quite alot of stuff for by my standards la..after getting onto the plane back then i start to regret not buying more since its really so cheap..haha. hope the things i bot were not impulsive buys..shall upload some photos later..

anw its the hols..yea but it'll be some time before i get to see my dear..like i told him just now..weekends dont seem as complete without him..oh wells..hope time can fast forward..and im feeling kinda sian that it seems ppl are busy and im not so..was lookin forward to dance this hols but somehow no news at all..shrugs.

everyday is precious, do something meaningful everyday.

tts wads dear told me just now..kinda hit me..haha. made me abit more motivated..but really only abit more la huh cos im naturally lazy..bleah.

anyhow i played quite alot of minesweeper during the exam period..like in between studying i'll play minesweeper as a break..got my mom hooked too..its the first time i figured out how to play the game logically without clicking away randomly at the squares..haha. and yea i completed beginner and intermediate stage! then started to get my timings shorter and shorter..really takes alot of concentration man..haha.

oh yea im having difficulty slotting my pes for next sem..im getting pretty frustrated with having to do all these registration shit online and it just doesnt seem to be working out for me..cant slot in those i wanna take without changing my classes which means new tutorial mates all over again..sigh. im at a loss as to how to do this stuff..eergh. pissifying.

quick update!

2006-11-30T01:22:00.000+08:00

ok here's a quick update cos i wanna sleep..haha.

the dreaded exams which nearly drew all breathes of life from my body..heh. ok that's a bit of an exaggeration..anw yea its finally over..im glad but worried abt my papers..but yea, its over so whatever.

alright so first up for my holiday plans: im flying off to bangkok tmr night! ok actually tonight..haha. since its past midnight already..abit of shopping and sightseeing..yea. gg with my family and my younger cousins and their family..makes me recall my trip to japan this april..i still havent had enough of that japan..told dear i wanna go with him..haha. anw hoping to buy lotsa stuffs from bkk this time round! WOOTS!

anw yea rest of the holidays nothing confirmed yet but prob catch up with frens and of course spend time with dear whom i havent seen in awhile..yayness(: and then there's lovely christmas and soon we'll all be ushering in the new year! time really flies doesnt it? heh. somehow christmas has always been a holiday that i like especially much..compared to like cny and all the rest..there's just sth magical abt it dont yu think? haha ok im being a small girl again..dont mind me..

ok so i'll be back with more updates abt my trip to the land of smiles! (:

to dear: dont worry abt anything alright? i'll see yu soon..smile my boy(:

exams!

2006-11-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

this shall be my final update before i start choinging for exams..haha wad a joke! my first paper's exactly a week away and im only starting to chiong full time now..dont even think i'll really be able to pia like shit la tho i really hafta if i wanna do well enuff..oh bother..

well i actually studied for it quiz that day..cant believe im studying it..nvm then there was this part abt trading our privacy for convenience..seems silly how ppl would allow themselves to be exposed more to the public eye and give up part of our privacy for convenience and efficiency..take blogs for example..on one hand we wanna blog cos its a convenient way to express your thots and update your friends abt the ongoings in your life..yet publishing those ehtries on the internet allows just about anyone to have access to it..ppl who dont know yu know all abt wads gg on in your life..and then when ppl start slamming yu for the things yu say in your blog, or start commenting abt your actions and stuff..yu get unhappy and outraged cos yu wonder why the hell ppl yu dont know are reading your blog and wad gives them the right to comment..well, yu did. from the moment yu published your blog entry..human nature is indeed such a complicated thing..

anw i was googling for my name to see if i'd find anythin interesting..didnt get anythin on myself when i entered 'germaine lim' (ah! now there will be sth when i google for that!haha)..so i tried my full name expecting of cos zero results but there actually was ONE result! my name appeared in ABRSM's annual report! woots! cos i took my grade 6 theory a few yrs ago and i think i got a distinction or sth so got some prize la..received some money from that..pls dont get me wrong im not bragging..yea so that was one unexpected find of the week! haha.

well dear's away outfield now..only found out the night before that he was leaving for 2nights the next day..so last min..miss him so much! feels weird not to have someone to msg and talk to..hope to see him soon..i sometimes feel envious seein my frens arnd with their bf or gf..i want my berty too..oh yea caught deathnote with dear over the weekend! a movie finally..i missed the prestige..think will watch it on dvd next time..deathnote was not bad..clever plot..but i think i really dun find jap guy shuai..why do girls go gaga over them..i think korean boys too..the guys in princess hours seem abit gay lehz..their dressing and i think they're too skinny..i dun like that kind..haha. which explains why i simply love my berty so much! *beams(:

ok nth much to talk abt alr la.was lookin thru the pics on my comp..actually tried to post some of the pics up but stupid blogger function not working somehow..eergh. so yea maybe next time if i

rmb! meantime, chill everyone! dun let the exam stress get to y'all! but do study hard! n to those who dont need to study..good for yu..haha.

updates updates

2006-10-23T00:31:00.000+08:00

im rather tired..shall try to keep this not-so-long..

wish i didnt have lessons tmr..then i'll be enjoying a super long weekend..feling sian cos its back to school tmr again.first to bata, then to school..oh boy i dunno why tt suddenly came to mind..think its cos ive been thinking of buying those slipon bata canvas shoes and drawing on them myself instead of buyin from shops where they're overpriced..haha.

caught the departed with dear last week..the hollywood version of infernal affairs..but i dun find it good..can nv beat the hongkongers in their sehness and gangsta attitude..caught overdrive with r&b peeps too! nth beats dancing with them..really hope the impresario thingy coms thru..im so excited! oh we got to catch wade robson in action at overdrive! he's way cool! dance moves super slick..and utt was sitting just 2rows in front of us..haha. took pic with him during interval but i think i look ugly in the pic..he was rather friendly tho..

this week was a rather hectic week..had seemingly endless tutorials to complete and had to study for acct practice assignment after which i felt like fainting cos it wasnt easy at all tho the format is quite standard every yr..maybe cos someone almost knocked my right arm outta its joint as well..haha.

finally, the weekend came and now its gone..met up with some 63 ppl at marina..had pizza hut for dinner where we sat til they closed and talked cock..as usual shortie was the biggest joke of the night..yea he himself is the joke..haha. great laughs that night..oh and that night i ate a hell lot: 4 slices of regular pizza, 2drumlets, 1beefball, 1 bowl of soup..omg and my tum actually didnt explode..heh. today, just now..went out with dear..caught exiled with my dear..i would recommend that yu guys dun watch that show..v slow moving and there really isnt much of a plot..tho in dear's words..the cast is hei1 she4 hui4 yuan2 ban1 ren2 ma3..meaning the original cast from the show hei she hui..haha. but turned out much worse than hei she hui..its the plot, not the cast..a pity tho..he cast is good tho..so glad for this longer weekend dear has as well..gives me a chance to spend time with him before i really hit the books and mug till i drop..really enjoy my time with him so much(:

was reading jingmin's blog just now..she mentioned sth abt not just doing things in uni for the sake of our resume..i think my resume is sth that i keep in mind when i do stuff tho i think most still on the spur of the moment..then i start to think alot abt whether to really do that activity or take up that post orwhatever shit..she mentioned sth abt spreadin your wings and feel the wind run thru it cos yu'll nv know how far yu can spread your wings if yu dun try..i think im one timid girl who hasnt been able to spread my wings..i think i dont dare to take the step..in only capable of dreaming of what i wanna do and wish i can accomplish in uni..but when the time is finally here, i seem to have neverending considerations and wavering intentions..afriad if i take too many things up and i screw up my studies..so im forever unable to step out and attempt to juggle the many things i have on hand but constantly doubting my ability to plan and manage my time effectively cos my past 'records' have proven me to have bad time management..and then i start to blame my piano to make myself feel better..if my piano didnt exist..would i take those things up?would i still be afraid? piano is probably just naother excuse and consolation for myself..i think i know what i want..but im afraid to risk it, afraid to step out..and i think i wont even after the next 3 yrs..haha. which more or less renders the above paragraph useless crap..heh. im so hilarious! *laughs at myself..

alrighty..bed time..prob will be a long time till i update again..night!

breathe

2006-10-11T23:47:00.000+08:00

finally, i can b r e a t h e.

what a hectic week.

one proj down,2 more to go.

and once again, i can breathe.

but not for long.

i realise im an ambitious, yet easily contented girl.

guess i have conflicting character..haha.

-missing yu.

what is wrong with me

2006-09-27T23:18:00.000+08:00

what the hell is wrong with me.

just when i thot i had gotten over the feeling, its back to haunt me.
i can nv seem to figure it out.

recess week

2006-09-27T21:43:00.000+08:00

spell R E C E S S.

yupp its recess week.

and its alr mid recess wk but my long to-do list which i only just wrote out last night is still short of many ticks..not much of a break..more of catchup and proj and assignment time..only thing that made this wk so much better is that my dear is having a week long leave too!so i get to see im almost everyday this wk!happy happy!(: but dear's been really understanding..asking me to do work too..he's out having fun with classmates now..haha. dear's been sweet..little things he does makes me happy..makes me go awww..wish i can have him forever..sorry if this sounds childish to some..tts wads gg thru my mind..close this window if yu're gonna puke..haha. had two proj meetings beginning of this wk..i intend to run at least once this wk..im seriously growing fat..no joke..my tummy is back..like yucks la. cant stand it..suck in when i walk outside..haha. htne when i sit down..its like WOAH. damn bad.bleah.hope i can get down to doing serious work next 2days..but i highly doubt so as i am confident of my ability to digress and be distracted and to stare at the tv..haha.

ive been dreaming past 2nights..and i dont really like to dream..cos it means im not getting the rest i desperately need!last last night was a bad dream..last night was a better dream..if i am gonna dream today too..i hope it'll be a totally blissful dream(: tho i dunno why the sudden dreaming spree cos the stuff i dream abt arent wad im thinking abt..actually hey, part of them are wad i think abt..my oh my..intrigueing..is that how yu spell it? heh.

oh yea been looking for new blogskin..saw this really nice one but not v me tho i dance..not this kinda dance la..but i think the picture is so beautiful..rather inpiring i think..

nice right? i think so too!(: somehow reminds me of guano and shihan..heh.

oh yea anw i suddenly realise that what i said in my previous entry that's my fault isnt really my fault anymore..its partly my fault but not entirely..i think it could have been avoided if i had the proper guidance i am getting right now..and i so regret not seeking alternatives earlier! im missing out on stuff i wanna do and stuff others get to do!! im pissed..but wad the heck..why am i complaining and whining and crying over spilled milk when obviously there's no turning back now..i just hafta juggle wad i have on my hands now and hope i do it right..and hope that other opportunities come at the right time..right? but i still think..cant help it..sigh. esp last week when i found out SO MANY other ppl whom i thot were not doing the stuff are in fact doing the stuff! oh my i think this is getting confusing for the ppl reading..sorry..haha.

oh btw i totally cant stand the fact that i hafta make rounds in big bookshop until 1901H before i can enter yamaha for my piano lesson..ever since i changed my time slot..i see my ex teacher whom i somehow have difficulty facing altho i dunno why cos it wasnt my fault that im under a different teacher now..i just dunno what to say when if i come face to face with her so i hafta avoid her at all cost.damn.

its the first time in my life i have wondered if im really part of a group ive always thot i belonged to..its the first time i see an invitation and im obviously part of the group mentioned but i act had doubts in my mind if that invitation was for me as well..if im welcome..if i'll get comments which i'll hafta laugh off and feel bad abt inside..if i'll feel outta place..i know i'll look forward to seeing the others..but will they enjoy my company?or will things just go on as if i werent there cos i dunno the recent ongoings and noone will really bother to fill me in..and after thinking abt all these..self-consolations flow into my mind and the final question will always be: am i thinking too much?

im gibberishh.

right dear?=P

ok enuff for one entry..hope the next entry will be accompaniedby a new skin!(:

mia-ded!

2006-09-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

hello to ppl who still read this! mia-ded for one entire month! haha. time to clear out the cobwebs!(:

getting used to the uni routine and all but not really managing it well i guess..struggling abit already..not good at all..basically my mon-wed super heavy after thta no more tut only one lect on thurs so yea..weekends and mon tues night always v stressed..heh. but i'll get by..my dear has been very understanding too..meeting so much less often nowadays but he nv complain much..thanks berty!(: oh and berty says my vdc is back to haunt me so im trying to not snack now and just eat my three meals..and not too much too..haha. and find time to exercise tho i havent been successful regarding the 2nd part yet..heh. i really dun understand y ppl living in hall like to run at night tho?more cooling izzit?can see where yu're running mehz?shrugs.

missing dear alot since he's outfield but will be back tmr..i want him to come back fast! now!he'll be so pleased to know i updated our blog(: nice surprise for him when he gets back!

its funny how i always run outta things to say on my blog when i actually get down to doing so..oh yes im craving for ben&jerry's! tt day yo called me cos her fren's working at b&j's batch 20..i was in batch14! feel so old and they trained so many batches in that short span of time! wonder if the scoopies i used to work with are still there..wanna go back for ice cream soon..hopefully this fri with kiet and alicia! wonder if the scoopies will recognise me or will i be treated as another customer..i think it'll feel abit like home when i enter the shop but the ppl wont know me so will feel abit foreign too..sadd..miss the ppl i used to work with..miss working there actually..smelly, dea, zhimei, huishan, lenise, pam..yea so far have only bumped into smelly and dea since i left..i thot singapore's not that big?why havent i bumped into the rest..hmmm..

somehow i cant seem to sort out my thots like wad ive been thinkin abt past few days..only dear appears..but i know i did have thots i wanted to put down as well..shucks.

was happy hours ago..that the nightmarish part of my week's almost over but feeling damn sian now..i think im missing berty..

oh yes there's lireal chalet this weekend and babes bday coming up! happy birthday CACH, YING, MARIA!!!

i realise i am quite a runner..keep running away from things i cant really solve..i'd rather leave it as that and not resist taking constructive steps to solve it..in a sense i cant be bothered but then again its not like i really dont bother..i'll keep thinkin abt it..sigh..and it felt horrible to find out that the thing yu've been relenting abt was really caused by yourself..myself in this case..cannot blame anyone but me..its like i try to not just heck everything but somehow i know its still there..someone just has to poke that sore point and it'll ache..sth liddat? but dear has been great..dunno wad i'd do without him..i think im more dependent than i would like to be and think i am..

anw i dun like having to think of wad to wear to school everyday..i wanna wear school uniform again..and yu konw nowadays when i write my name on my work..i always instinctiviely begin to write 04s63 after my name but then i stop in time and remind myself there's no class whatsoever now and i write the date..sad know..like just write name and date..no class..or register number..haha.

ok to end off..since i ran outta things to write..latest fav song is sexy love by ne-yo!(: since the day i watched nus dancebalst concert..i think that item was so sweet..the sweet love kind..so aww..and the girl in the item danced really well..

i shall be happy! germ is happy! (:

im 19! continued..

2006-08-11T16:32:00.000+08:00

ok im back with summore pics of my adventures with dear last sat!

the shocking durians!

the 4d glasses!

dinner at breeks and dessert at coffee club(:

steaming hot cottage pie and yummy muddy mud pie!:P can we eat now??

fireworks lit up the night sky that night..

and dear lit up my heart(: yu're awesome dear..thank yu so much for everything! hugs!

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my og had bbq last tuesday as well and they bought a cake for me too! really nice of them..bbq was at cheryl's house..i think lireal super happening la..so many outings..think lireal topscorer alr la..heh. bbq was great..cheryl's house v nice yu know..haha. i like the kitchen being separated by glass panes..i think v nice..like can cook and the smell the doesnt come into the living room yet can see wads gg on outside..didnt feel like i ate much that day..dunno why..played the game where yu're not suppose to say the phrase tts stuck on your hear(yu dunno wads the phrase on your head) and suppose to sabo each other at the same time..heh. got a bit sian after awhile tho..yea.

look at our choir conducted by ms esther! haha.

group pictures!

and on my actual birthday itself, which was the first day of school..we had dinner at long john silver at jp at night..and they surprised me with another cake! and the cake was strangely the exact same cake my parents had bought me the night before..from the exact same place too..heh. THANK YU LIREAL! altho i doubt any of them will find their way here..heh. two cakes and dinner at long john silver man..funny but sweet of them..yea(:

ok that's the end of my birthday adventures this year..i sure had fun! (:

im 19! (:

2006-08-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

finally in the mood to write abt the nice things tt happened during my birthday!

dear planned a great day for me last sat! im so happy..seriously..so happy i cldnt smile without showing my teeth! haha. :D so we met on sat morning at clementi and took a train to harbourfront.so by then i of course wld have guess we're heading to sentosa! (: at harbourfront station i insisted sentosa bus was on the right exit so i kept telling dear right side right side..but he kept pulling me the other direction and said who says we're taking bus? then i suddenly saw the cable car sign..i burst out in smiles la..I WAS ESTATIC! cldnt stop smiling and kept gg.."we're taking cable car?we're taking cable car!" haha. been ages since i last sat in one la..super excited!!!! i was like holding dear's hand and skipping towards the escalator..heh. from that moment on my mouth was practically open with teeth showing all the way..

upon arriving sentosa, we headed for the luge ride! so fun fun fun! felt like a small kid in a small little racing car speeding downhill and screaming weird nonsense and making strange noises at dear! haha. after that took skyride back up the hill where i almost lost my slipper..haha. we posed great for the cam during the ride and bought the nice pic for remembrance! we were so so happy! (:

after luge ride we headed to siloso beach! found a nice spot under the coconut tree laid out our mat and dear whipped out all the food he had brought..honestly, i didnt expect dear to have prepared so much food!puffs from delifrance, biscuits, buns, drinks and he even brought a cooler of ice so the drinks were cold and refreshing when we drank them! and thru out the day we bot more drinks and left them to freeze in the cooler with dear carrying it the entire day..so thoughtful of my baby! (:(:(: i was really really amazed by the amt of preparation dear did..he even had my fav oreos! hee. and printed out info on attractions at sentosa so i cld take a read and choose wad i wanted to do..my dear rawks!(: so we sat at beach pigging out, talking cock, kicking sand onto each other and into each other shorts and tried to tan a little..

after that we headed to 4d magix! bought b&j's milkshake on the way! yummy stuff!(: watched 4d in japan before and i think this one had more effects but not as appropriate as the one is japan..like having the effects for the sake of having them..dear and i got kinda irritated when the seats kept jerking at every little action the character in the show made..i loved the parts where they spray water on us the most!haha. in japan they not so generous with the water..heh. dear didnt seem quite satisfied so we went to cinemania too..dear liked this one so much more cos its simulator ride..like four ppl to a cabin and each individual cabin moves and yu feel like yu're really on a rollercoaster and all..i also prefer this one actually..but i kept bumping into the sides of the cabin..painful..

after cinemania we decided to head back mainland..yes! on cable car too!(: changed into our fresh set of clothes and had dinner at breeks at harbourfront! the food portions are small..even i wasnt full la..so after that we headed to coffee club where we had nice warm pie then delicious muddy mudpie for dessert! haha. tt was my little bday cake! (: yumm.

took train to cityhall and went esplanade to await the beginning to fireworks display! 3rd yr watching with dear! but i sense that dear's getting abit bored off this activity tho i thot we cld watch it every august tog..so next yr we shall not watch k dear? yu relieved? heh. so that was a spectacular ending to our day out! (:

thanks dear for planning the day for me..it was superb! i really enjoyed myself thoroughly..im sure yu cld tell by my big smiles and skipping and runing abt the place..haha. thanks for being so thoughtful! i really love the surprised yu planned for me this yr..the happiest bday yet spent with yu dear! and im sure many many more exciting ones to come right right right? (: i love yu dear! only yu can make me this happy..hugs!

ok its getting late..more pics the next time found..and big thanks to all who wished me..shall continue abt my bday next entry ya? goodnight everyone!

wow its been a month!

2006-07-27T01:15:00.000+08:00

wow whee! its been a month since ive updated..haha. but i dont think anyone cares..sobs..im forgotten and not remembered and what not..i think they mean the same..haha.

ok last last week had stayover at maggot's..so nice to see all the familiar faces again..maggot, manda, pang, sab, cat, myra, but no xueai..that girl always mia..havent seen her in sucha a long time!we went to beach in the morning..shifted from palawan to siloso beach after awhile..tried to canoe..played vball with a bunch of ntu ppl who were kind enuff to play with us amateurs..took pics then left beach..ate b&j's..then went to harbourfront hawker centre to eat..yumm..after that stopped buy clementi ntuc to buy stuff to munch on at night and went back maggot's house..i fell asleep for awhile while the rest played games so after waking up i joined in..played silly games..oh ya played silly cai quan games at beach too all thanks to manda who learnt from her arts camp..anw all in all it was a good good stayover! great to have everyone back tog..and yes we're still sleeping tog after 2years! haha. and we all figured we were aging cos all of us slathered generous amounts of spf50 sunblock on ourselves..in the past we wld have rolled up all our sleeves to get burnt in the sun..heh. it was rreally fun..miss them so much!

met up with alicia for dinner too..at holland v..manda was there for awhile too before leaving to meet her og..had swensens then headed to eski bar for a drink..that place is way cool! there's a super cold room at the back where the bar top in there is actually made of ice!and they provide jackets for yu to wear in the room else yu'll freeze! we didnt manage to tahan long enuff in the super cold room..just long enuff to blow some smoke outta our mouths..and take pics..haha.for the sake of art..heh.

had nbs foc last week..minus all the sdu stuff..it was great fun! altho like dear says its sdu most of the time but other than the games..the living tog in the same chalet..it sure brought some of us closer to each other..made new frens and a couple of good frens..seniors were great..took good care of us..bot supper and drinks for us and all that..our og lireal was the og with like most seniors i think..senoirs themselves can form another og alr la..haha. having og outing tmr..steamboat dinner at bugis..yea. hope it'll be fun! i think shld be quite alot of ppl gg considering we have so many seniors..heh.

and of course ive been meeting up with my dear every weekend..recently had porridge buffet at suntec with my greedy pig..haha. wasnt that great i feel..for the amt we paid..like abt same price as yuki yaki but food not as nice..spread not as good also..but i enjoyed it nonetheless for the company..and phototaking session..haha. dear and i camwhore lorz..and always ends up quite funny..the faces and the process.heh.after that discovered that hanjie caught us in action but nv come say hi..sneaky lehz..tsk tsk..

went for dance with manda at oschool today..i think the place is damn cool! graffitti and all..the instructor very small and cute and funny too..reminds me of jo hor..haha. i like the choreography here better too..and the ezlink card! so funky! my gawd! i shall take a pic of it some day and put it up for everyone to see..the oschool logo is printed on it..so cool! no more ugly blue ez link logo on the card! haha.

oh yes i was ppl watching at the coffee&toast place this evening before meetin manda..some interesting observations..counted for a min and 128 ppl walked pass..most intersting tee i saw said 'trust me im a physics teacher'..and most interesting hairdo was someone with paul twohill's hairstyle but he looked super off cos his eyes were like almost totallly closed..twohill carries it off with so much more style la..that guy was like squinting..haha.i realise ppl really do walk rather quickly..even tho from their exopressions they seem to be relaxed and happily chatting and all they were walking v quickly..haha. some reading must be thinkin im weird..heh. then i sat there thinking abt the times i would clutch dear's arm with looks of excitement on our faces as we walk and talk cos that's like the beginning of our day out tog at suntec or marina or city link..today didnt hear from deat very much too so missed him alot then kept thinking..looked at working couples and wondered if we'll be like them in future..meeeting after work for dinner, filling each other in on our day and then heading home tog..i hope so man..

alright now for pics! take care everyone! till my next update!

yo yo

2006-06-29T15:52:00.000+08:00

HEYLOESS! check out these vids i found on youtube..the jap ones are very interesting..japs really quite smart to think of these..heh. they have many of such vids like how to peel a potato in one shot, how to put a band aid on so it'll stay for the entire day, how to fold your clothes in a split second..haha. the last one's a tune played on the guitar by some guy..cool stuff..

How to peel a potato skin in one shot

How to put a band aid on so it'll stay on all day

Guitar

dear's booking out tmr!happy happy!next week will be the last week im scooping at b&j's..only a short 2month stint there and ive made many good friends! the ppl working at b&j's are all very easy to get along with and cheerful..think maybe i'll go back and help out during school hols..yupp. oh yea im still sick btw..haha. just saw doc again today..hope i recover fully soon!i think there's a virus gg arnd at cathay tts why..haha.

it seems mtv likes using the word delectable in their ads.."the delectable jessica alba", "the delectable choreographer on the wade robson project"..haha. i made this observation today..show how much of a tv addict i am huh?heh.

dear took real good care of me last weekend cos i was really sick..blocked nose, cough, and i actually had abit of a fever..but yea dear took care of me..cooked lunch for me, bought medicine for me, watched me take medicine..i rmb there was this instant i felt very terrible cos i suddenly ran a fever then i was like.."dearrr.."and i hugged him real tight..and he put his arms arnd me to comfort me as well..i felt really loved and really thankful dear was there taking care of me..and i did feel better after the hug..emotionally at least..haha. im so fortunate to have this silly poot..heh. thank yu dear..i love yu!missing yu loads dear!

yeps..anw on the job ive seen many despo guys trying to befriend my fellow scoopies..i think such ppl are super irritating la..asking for my frens no and all..like seriously..get a life! do yu really think girl's like to picked up liddat..ok maybe some do but i think most dont..like do yu think anything will really come outta it?? there was this day when i just stepped in for work..3 of my frens were alr there working la..they served this big group of students before i had arrived..the group consisted of both girls and buys la..so they had finished their ice cream and the girls came back to the counter and started talking the the 3frens of mine who were alr there..asked for their names and all..my frens were really friendly cos thot the girls were interested in working at b&j's too..apparently they were just feigning interest..after talking for awhile my frens left em and continues work..so we were all gathered at the cashier area then the girls came up and said.."ok let's cut the chase..act my guy friends wanna get to know yu guys(my 3frens) better..they want your number.." then my frens just laughed it off and tried to brush them off but didnt work so eventually we wrote down our managers no on a napkin and gave it to them..haha. so freaking despo la..and there's this security guy at cathay who's also very despo..asked for my store manager's no and some other scoppies no too..so darn despo and daring la! store manager's no also dare to ask! and once he was really interested in this scoopie..she was serving him and after she scooped his ice cream for him she said, "yu can make your payment over at the cashier." He said "can i have your no pls?" "so will that be all sir?" "no, can i have yu too?" like WTH!!! anw i hope no such ppl in uni..totally puts me off! oh ya btw we gave that security guard a name..zhimei came up with this..we called him threatenty..cos he's suppose to make us feel safe and secure yet he makes us feel threatened so he's not security..he's THREATENTYY!!!haha.

alright tts abt all i hafta say for today..take care everyone!

sick again

2006-06-20T19:37:00.000+08:00

im sick again..blocked nose and sore throat..made a trip to the clinic today to get some medicine..have been self-medicating the past few days..bleah i dont like it when im sick..seems like everytime i make a mental note a few days before that i shall go for dance whichever day..sth crops up and i'll end up not being able to go..wanted to go dance today but sick so decided to stay home and rest..yupp..

mg stayover confirmed 3-4july! im so excitedd!!! hope everyone will turn up havent seen everyone in a long time esp xueai!!! excited excited..looking forward to fri too cos dear gets to book out then! dear's not having a good time in camp..sigh.. i guess i understand how he's feeling and why but sometimes i dunno how to console him except try to make him laugh and cheer him up by doing stupid things and making funny sounds to amuse him..like yesterday typed this super long sms..actually many smses but i got gradually illogical after each msg i sent..was just trying to change dear's way of thinking and persuade him to look on the positive side..rather worried abt my baby..wanna see him badly..just clicked on the link to our blog and hearing the music, reading the last blog entry he typed for me..i was overwhelmed with emotions and sadness..miss him so much after being used to seeing him so often last two weeks..yesterday when i heard his voice over the phone for the first time since he booked in i was hit by a wave of emotions too..and i was sad hearing that he wasnt happy in camp..i so wanna hug him and tell him that everything will eventually work out fine and hope that it really does..

presently reading this book called the five people you meet in heaven..a rather short story almost done with it..but a powerful one and kinda gets one thinking..altho yea i console myself at times that everything happens for a reason tho we dont know wad the reason is..its all plan of a bigger plan that God has for us..that's wad i recently told dear too..but i suddenly wonder why cant the reason be made known to us..so that we can strive to live our purpose in life..and maybe our life will be more meaningful if we know our purpose and His plan for us..its a test of our faith maybe? that we entrust out lives to Him..that we know as long as He is in control everything will be fine?in the book the main character dies in an accident goes to heaven and meets five ppl who help him to understand his life on earth and reasons foe certain things happening so he'll look at it from a different perspective..so why couldnt the reason be made known to us when we're still alive? why wait till we're dead then help us understand our life?is that life's test for us?to see if we can stay strong and not be brought down by adversities but instead move on even more determined..another test? is life all abt tests? hmmm..

alrighty my tummy's growling..gonna have dinner now!

an update!

2006-06-15T21:53:00.000+08:00

my nose is stuffed and so is my brain..haha. i think its weird how i always think to myself i must update abt this and that when im alone and when im sitting right in front of this screen with my fingers all ready above the keyboard..i cant think of where to start and much less rmb wad i told myself to write here..haha.

oh yes i rmb..i realise i keep seeing ppl pulling luggage bags along these few days..since like last week..and sometimes they dont look like their just back from holiday or on their way to the airport..i mean can tell from dressing sometimes right?they have that face la..so its either that its the june hols and many ppl are gg abroad or that more ppl are setting up roadside or pushcart stalls or their own and the luggage bags contain their merchandise..haha.

been keeping rather up to date with movies recently..da vinci code, xmen3, over the hedge, cars, garfield2..outta that list i liked cars the most..really funny! and i like the pit stop guy in the show! haha. its called guido but i dont care its funnier to call it pit stop..heh. i always fold arms like pit stop did in the show..haha.so funny! garfield's kinda lame only funny parts were garfield and prince himself..like their actions and dance moves and all..i think ode is super cute! haha. so sweeet! (: oh and while waiting for the show to start they were airing this ad abt the garfield toys that can be collected at burger king..i wanna get the one where yu press its tummy and garfield farts!!! haha. so hilarious! like deardear..keep farting and eat so much like garfield..heh. (dont kill me for saying that dear!) (:

dear's block leave is ending soon..tmr he'll know when he's posted to..bleah. he says he's not nervous but im abit nervous for him..shall go kajiao shortie tmr see if he gets to his ocs..haha. yest shortie and cach came to visit me at work and kpet jeering shortie saying he confirm cmi..hee. kiet and dear came to eat ice cream too! dear sent me to work ma..and bought his lovely freaking cool adidas greyish black jacket with orange and white strips..then met kiet and came to eat ice cream..cant begin to say how reluctant i am for mon to come cos that's prob when dear has to report back to whichever school/camp he's posted to..feels like he's enlisting all over again but now with longer confinement and tougher regimental trng and i think shorter weekends with him..sigh..

work's been great..very fun and the ppl are cool..just when im starting to feel at home and getting the momentum and everything..i realise i'll be stopping work in a few weeks' time..bleah. n prob only work on holidays..but not even sure if the mid term one month break will be so packed that i cant work..jsut when im starting to get to know the ppl better..sigh..nth really lasts forever huh? but i hope my love does..love is one thing that i believe can last forever and i hope my faith in that belief will not waver..call me an idealist..call me naive..that's what i believe..im a small girl at heart!(:

and yea recently ppl have been saying i look young..like i dont look my age and look like small kid..alamak..does that mean im childish and immature?*ponders..

was sorking at suntec last week with this girl called jiayan..she was saying she loves observing how ppl eat their ice cream..ive nv done that yu know cos i think suntec outlet smaller can see the ppl eating but at cathay can only see from afar..anw she said some lick the ice cream off their spoon, some scrape the ice cream downwards with their spoon (which is the normal way) and some scrape upwards (which is silly cos they'll prob flick the ice cream off their spoon)..ive nv noticed all these first hand but one thing i do notice is that noone ever leaves b&j's feeling unhappy..everyones all smiles and satisfied having had their fill of ice cream! its quite a good feeling recommending flavours to ppl and seeing that yu helped them make the correct choice and that they enjoyed their ice cream so much..sounds abit silly..kinda makes me seems very easily contented but its true..that is MY job satisfaction..yupp. *beams(:

ok dear's distracting me with all sorts of websites and ppl's friendsters haah so i shall go check them out now! heh. life's been good to me and i hope it stays that way! uni life appraoching soon which im still apprehensive abt..sigh..dear and i gg to run tmr! then spend whole day out tog to celebrate our 25th month! (: i love my baby so so much!

im sick..bleah.

2006-05-24T20:53:00.000+08:00

im back..thanks everyone for your concern..im fine!everyone has their bad days huh? anw im down with blocked/running nose..i cant figure which one cos sometimes its running..sometimes its blocked..haha. at the moment its both. hee..oh wells, feels sucky to not have dear arnd when im feeling awful and ill..anw dear will be gg for sit test tmr in jungle..another 3days2nights in jungle..yea its a test where they sit in the jungle and see who can sit and keep still for the longest time cos there's so many insects and flying creatures and mud all arnd in the jungle so its a test of endurance..haha yea right..its act situation test i think to see how they'll react given diff situations to test their wit, leadership and the way they do things i guess..yupp dear says its quite a deciding factor as to whether a soldier is fit to go command school or not..meanwhile i hafta work on abolishing all thots in dear's mind of signing onto navy..someone pls help me knock some sense into him that its never good to tie urself down with a bond with saf now..or any gov agencies..that's wad i think la..i sound like oppostition supporter..haha. will miss dear alot alot when he goes jungle..cannot talk for 3days..BLEAH. bmt almost over alr..2 more weekends and im still not exactly used to dear being away from me bookin in n out every wkend..tho i realise cos of this each split second we spend tog now really is quality time tog..which makes me very happy!(: i have gotten used to sending msges to dear n not gettin replies til v long later tho..haha.and it was our 2YEARS ANNIVERSARY on 18th may last thursday! BEAMS(:(:(:so glad we're still as loving as ever and that our love and care for each other has not faded over time..hope we'll only grow stronger and learn to cherish each other more cos i wasnt many more 2years yu hear me silly poot??heh.

anw work has been good..its fun to see how ice cream and sometimes yu as a scoopie have made people's day that much brighter!tho i must say i wont really crave for ice cream outside of work now that i see ice cream and taste a lil bit everyday..when i open new bulks of ice cream which happens everyday..haha. dun think i'll grow fat tho cos i dont eat much somehow looking at it makes yu full..haha. i eat more waffles tho..those yu screw up yu eat..haha. so far only maria has visited me! haha. she came with derek on my 2nd day of work! shunmun came lookin for jingmin but found me instead..haha. so far that's all la..dear still hasnt seen me at work yet..maybe during his block leave..yupp. fellow scoopies all v nice and friendly! and we're seniors after just a week cos a new batch was trained a week after us..which usually doesnt happen..haha. ive learnt to make cookies, brownies, muffins and decorate cakes w whipped cream..haha. and how to use an electric beater cos i dont have sucha device at home..heh. however, there are some ppl or maybe someone who's spoiling working environment and mood and team dynamics..apparently im not the only one who thinks so..means im not bein mean..but ya im startin to be able to tolerate that someone better cos i realise we dont have a choice cos we'll inevitably get our day of working w him/her..yupp. so just bitch amongst ouselves to release tension and relief stress sometimes la..haha. suppose to have batch14 scoopies dinner tmr but it seems no information on that yet so dunno if it will materialise..hope so! oh and meeting other scoopies on this job has indeed made me realise that singapore's really v small..this girl i waws working w frm cj has bf in ndu where jk is and her bf is close to dear's bunkmates..the ones whom dear's closest to summore!so..i better ji1 de2 cos wad goes arnd comes arnd..tho i havent really been a bad mean girl before this revelation..haha. not much of a revelation also la..heh.

having movie marathon with dear this sun when he books out! hopefully enuff time to watch 2movies-da vinci code and xmen!(: i think xmen's gonna be so exciting! (:(: cant wait to see dear and spend time with dear again..then it'll be down to 1 more weekend to dear's pop!!!!(: hope i can get tic frm someone in school2 to go for it since dear's parents will be taking both his tics..

ive been wanting to blog sth more meaningful, sth deeper, reflecting on things arnd me..but somehow my sick mind isnt functioning qutie well now..my brain is rotting..one thing i realise is that no matter how many times yu tell urself to cherish the ppl arnd yu, loved ones, friends..yu never seem to treasure them enuff and only when they're gone or gg somewhere faraway eg to study overseas..its then that yu suddenly miss them alot and start blaming urself for not spending more time with them..bleah. i must admit ive nv kept much contact with my friends that've gone overseas to study..sab, ruiwen, shihan..no doubt we still talk on msn sometimes..we're not as close anymore..soon maggot and alicia will be gg away..and guano too..i will make sure i keep in touch with these 3good friends of mine..that day when we said our byes to each other at kap after dance night..i waved to guano and felt a sudden tinge of sadness and told maria that i'll miss guano when she goes london..hmmm..hope that i really will be able to do what ive typed..i always tell dear that i treasure him too and times spent with him..but i think im not really treasuring him enuff either..life just passes by all too quickly..time slips away without us realising and precious moments are lost as we go abt our daily routines oblivious to surroundings and not taking a time to show our concern for ppl arnd us..we shld lean to walk slower..but i wonder how that's possible in singapore..walk slower and time catches up with us..however the moment we speed up we start to miss the little thigs in life that truly matter and never get to realise how beautiful life is..ironic huh? alright that's all for now..i need rest..take care everyone! (:

-i love yu.

'happy' mothers' day

2006-05-14T21:42:00.000+08:00

im starting work at ben&jerry's cathay tmr..its suppose to be with exclamation marks but im not in the mood now im afraid..sucks to know that i may be gg to work with such an effed up mood tmr when we're suppose to be bringing all the joy in the world to work with us and to the customers so that they'll have a happy experience at b&j's..im still excited abt starting work but not feeling it now..n dear's just booked in so im in dear's words feeling two times horrible..hope i'll get adrenaline rush tmr..bleah.

past week was spent having trng at b&j's with six other wonderful happy ppl..it was fun and im sure it'll be even more fun when work starts tho it does seem a little daunting for now..afraid i'll bungle up and all during my first week at work..the few days of trng was rather inspiring seeing how the ppl are so driven by their passion to make others happy and to see that they truly love what they do..sadly i realise i havent actually pursued sth with full passion until now..not sure if ive even exactly found sth im passionate abt..dance is the closest i guess..im glad i had sth to occupy myself with the week dear was away at field camp..

my jungle man came back and just left again..sigh..but its just 3more weeks and bmt will be over!3more bookouts which im sure will pass superbly fast..i cant wait..this weekend was spent mostly with dear..stayed over at dear's house fri-sat..missed him so much..had light lunch with dear after tuition then watched hitch which he dl and then after that had good dinner which dear's parents cooked..rather paiseh past few weeks have been eating at dear's house more often..feel abit like im imposing on them..anw after that went holland v at night..walked arnd a bit..dear bought stuff for his mom for mothers' day, had a drink at some bar then ice cream at haagen dazs before heading back to dear's house..next day woke up had macs breakfast tog before i left for dance in school..time well spent with dear seems to be the only thing i can smile abt now..and my new job..

zhiwen came to polish our dance on sat and it was the only prac that felt like a real prac so far..we were damn slack before that la..had lunch with zhiwen maria jialing after dance then went home..after that had dinner at jumbo seafood at indoor stadium with parents..mothers' day cum dad's bday dinner..the food's realy good but also abit ex..we ate by the waterfront so it was rather cooling and ambience not bad..felt very relaxing..

today met dear to watch mi3 which was good but i was expecting maggie q to have more screen time..yupp..watlked abt a little then went to dear's house..dear packed and we left for dinner at white sands before bidding goodbye to my darling again..

funny how i cld still describe my entire week when i started off typing this entry with a mighty foul mood..typing theraphy?i shall type next time i feel upset and have noone to talk to..i think it helps me calm my nerves just rambling on and on and not talking to anyone..

today's mothers' day and i gave my mom a hug this morning and a selfmade card last night..tho im not too happy now but still happy mothers' day to mummy..thanks for everything..

sometimes i wish i was a bad girl..i wish i can bring myself to be a bad girl..

ok have a good week ahead everyone!

im still alive!

2006-05-06T20:29:00.000+08:00

hello im finally here again..im still alive! haha. first reply tagss..

weilynn: omg i really didnt know yu still read! im so touched..sobs..haha. how have yu been officer? heard yu're still in the running for the scholarship! all the best! (:

kiet: yes yes im doing fine! see yu tmr girl!

grace: ok i dunno which grace is this haha but anw HIIII!!!

okok im suppose to be very free jobless and all but dunno why i havent updated for so long..ok so let's start from....

last wed! ok i think its last wed..met alicia in town to shop then had dinner..we kept walking up and down taka and wisma for some reason like up and down up and down..oh yes cos it was raining too and we cldnt get outta there..heh. when the rain became lighter we went heeren and shopped summore..37degree was having 40% sale i think..tried a top which was quite nice but dunno why from longer than back so it looked kida weird if not i wld have bot it..maybe boobs not big enuff thats why..haha nah the cutting is such la..and we both bought the same necklace! nicenice(: after that we went cine pastamania for dinner..sat and talked after dinner then walked arnd summore to digest before heading home..yupp. hope yu've sorted things out alicia..as a friend ive given yu advise so i'll support whatever decision yu make alright? hugs..

sat! dear booked out!!! and cos that day my student called to cancel tuition i went to pasir ris to fetch dear! bluffed him i was on my way to tuition and all that..dear was so surprised when he called me and i was actually at pasir ris! haha. i was umchioing to myself after i got off phone with him and looking like a goondu while walking to control station to wait for him..smacks head..i cldnt recognise dear at first la cos like a whole bunch of army guys walking tog they really all look the same..then i saw a silly toot smiling widely n that's my dear..haha. so funny..dear went home bathe ate and we were off to suntec to catch elections2 which was bull..as in i thot the first one alr wasnt that good then second one was worse..i didnt believe the show had ended till i saw the attendant walk towards the seats and begin to collect rubbish..bleah. after that had dinner at ichiban boshi..which we both didnt find very satisfying i dunno why..so after that went to the hawker stalls at esplanade where dear ate hokkien mee..i was rather full alr..so dear's the greddy pig..heh. after that sat by the river talked quite abit then left at ten plus to go home..it was like a long time since i took mrt home with dear at night returning home from a day out..felt great to be spending time with the boy ive been missing so much..

sun! stayed home cos relatives were coming over so ya nth much la i was the only old cousin there again..always liddat..

mon! gave tuition in the morning and then met dear to go jp! we ate dim sum at food court then walked arnd the mall..so long nv been there with dear..used to go there so often cos that's like the most exciting and happening mall in west area..haha. walked arnd but got tired after awhile so went to dear's house and slacked arnd..then ate spag which his parents cooked..yummy but i was so so stuffedd! my tum was buldging and i felt pregnant..haha finally realise how pregnant moms feel with a lump below their boobs..sit also cannot stand also cannot lie down even worse..after that dear changed and i sent him off to pasir ris again..at first we were thinking just part at clementi but i wanted to spend more time with him see him longer cos field camp the this weekend so wldnt see him for 2weeks..so ya tts y im actually home and updating at this hour cos dear's in the jungle turning from jungle boy to man..haha. i told him he'll be my jungle man after field camp..heh. miss him so much lehz..alamak..sigh. but i think we're quite lucky that dear's field camp is in between the 2 long weekends..yea..i want thurs to hurry come and my jungle man will be back!! oh no it just started pouring..2nd time in the day..its prob all muddy in the jungle..poor boy..these few days been raining everyday without fail..yea so it was another sad episode sending dear back to pasir ris again..

thurs! saw an ad in the papers abt earning 90-150bucks a day promoting starhub world cup services..so asked cach along to the interview..esther and straw came along too..all the jobless ppl..found out its a solely commission based job which in a sense makes it a no strings attached job..like i can stop whenever i want and work whenever i feel broke..was suppose to go for trng the next day but in the end we all backed out cos thot its impossible to close such sales..i mean just think abt it i think majority of sporeans have scv alr so its very difficult to get new sales..and the guy conducting the mass interview was a turn off anw..telling jokes that met silence as cold as the walls of the room..zao xia-ing more than half the time he spoke..didnt quite understand wad he was talking abt more than half the time summore..or maybe i wasnt trying..heh.

fri! so cach and i went shopping instead! haha. ate at cine foodcourt then bought alicia's present from heeren and tried some clothes which didnt exactly excite us so we headed to topshop at wisma..took many clothes to try i took the stuff i'd nv ever be caught wearing in public..like a bright red half jacket which actually looked very cool but i wldnt dare wear it out..too radical im a conservative girl yu know(: wanted to try a super short mini skirt but it was falling off my hips big time..haha and i tried a pair of nice shorts which i cldnt zip up cos size too small..heh. cach tried many bottoms and she kept saying her ass is big!! smacks head..not big la babe! its just nice! haha(: she tried this long low v neck thingy which wld look nice if yu wear like a tube inside and have a big fat belt round it(: went starbucks to sit and talk since we were tired..talked abit abt uni courses and how we're scared of gg uni..oh ya and cach said sth which is the ans to wad ive been thinkin abt for some time..sth like i used to think there were ppl in hc i was close to and all but after leaving sch i find that we're really not that close..and on the other hand, its my mg frens im ultimately closest to and the most understanding..cach said i thot i was close to those frens in hc only cos of the proximity..but after everyone's left sch and no longer see them everyday..we really arent close anymore..seems like a simple and logical answer but somehow silly me just didnt think of it that way..but sadly my closer frens are all leaving to study abroad..who am i to talk to when i need someone next time!! pulls hair..dear will be in army la..pulls hair even more..everyone's abandoned meeee! haha wads wrong with me..

yupp met up with sec one peeps at holland v for dinner after that..at first i thot may be weird but it was alright! we talked like alot alot..haha. and altho i think there were times bel and i were kinda blur abt the ppl alicia and grace were talking abt it was still lotsa fun meeting up with them! and im surprised bel still rmbs stuff frm pri sch..my cousins and their names even! that i wanted to take law in uni last time..im very surprised but of course felt great to be remembered(: pri sch times came flooding back once again..the childish things we used to do and even in sec one..we were still childish..haha. and i must say i became a teeny bit disillusioned abt my choice to take accountancy after talking to the girls abt uni courses and all..but nevertheless im still gg there..jsut abit unsure abt my career path but that can wait(: yupp tho we havent goneout tog in ages still had fun tog!that's mg power! BEAMS(:

sat! dance in the morning and tuition..only thing missing is dear..usually look forward to sat cos its when i can see my darling again..but nvm the next week will pass quickly and i'll be able to spend time with my jungle man! (:

and yea asked jingmin abt ben&jerry's job today..the person told me to call him on mon to arrange interview and if i get pass tues-thurs trng..then the week after shld be officially scooping ice cream! wahaha. if all these actually happen right..i think dear will be so shocked that so many things have happened since he went into jungle..haha. rather excited cos ive always wanted to scoop ice cream! i mean ya as in try that kinda job la..heh. alright just hope thurs comes quickly!!! sun mon tues wed thurs..5 more days! (: missing yu yu yu darl!

funny dear! missing him..

all grown up now!(:

bored..

2006-04-25T16:51:00.000+08:00

thot i'd do this since i got tagged n im rotting at home..haha.

Rules:
1. Bold the following words that are true about you.
2. GREEN! the things you wish were true.
3. add one thing true about you
4. and then tag onetwothreefourFIVE more people.

I miss somebody right now.(badly!)
I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lens.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've been in a threesome.
I've been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someones' bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast/unclear.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have alot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have alot of friends.
I am currently single!
I have pecked someone of the same sex.(my mom!wad where yu thinking!haha.)
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.(sometimes..)
Enjoy window-shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.(nowadays cos im jobless..)
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.(he's a legend..)
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment!(cos the day is ending but i could be happier..)
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.(im jobless! haha)
I am comfortable with who I am now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.(at obs..)
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at MacDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.(well, they have their ups n downs..)
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the wrong people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers more than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongues in waves, much like a snakes slithers.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distraction.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.(well i think i know what it is..)
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I have ridden an elephant.
I love chocolates and crowns!
I go to school NOT for the sake of lessons.
I can't ride a bicycle.
I think i'm the only person crazy enough to do this at 6 in the morning without any sleep for the night.
I feel crazy.
I love tomatoes!!
I like peanut butter on bananas.
Been told "You're on fire!"
I'm a netballer.
I believe in Serendipity.
I think the word 'RASPBERRY' is sexaaay!(???)
I love to look at people's teeth.
I don't wanna grow up.
I can cross my eyes n stick out my tongue n still look cute.(haha!)
Gaining weight is a wonderful thing.
I am a PRO.
I love listening to gossip.(who doesnt?)
I really should be studying for exams now.
I totally love cheezels.
I can eat as much as a guy.

so yea i tag dear, ying..and noone else cos noone else reads my blog anymore..haha how funny! i just broke the rules! big deal! heh.

haha alright that took me quite awhile..hmmm so yea ive been hibernating at home for the past 2 days and finally gg out tmr to meet alicia..haha. fresh air fresh air! i long for fresh air! im such a sloth..haha but a sloth like sid in ice age 2 is cute..hee. dear called me just now and we talked for more than an hour! haha! so happy! cos its raining cat 1 there or sth so no activites for them but poor dear is still sick and i dunno..to me he doesnt seem to be getting better but he nv complains much n like doesnt go on and on abt it like a wuzzy..admire dear for that man..keeping his spirits up in army tho he's not feeling well..that's my man for yu! haha. i mean considering how ive heard things abt army guys being self-indulgent and talking abt army stuff all the time..i mean of course dear tells me abt his army life..tts all he goes thru everyday wad..but its like half half..he asks me abt my day and blah and talk abt wad i do the other half of the time..hope it stays this way! nods. so now ying actually understands how i feel..haha the crusade is failing! heh. i still miss dear tho he spoke to me for more than an hr..bleah.

oh yea i got accepted into ntu accountancy which is great cos that's where i was planning to go..yupp. i dont sound too excited huh?haha but i was la when i got the letter..alright wish everyone all the best in getting to where they want! take care peeps!

im back!

2006-04-23T21:52:00.000+08:00

YES DEAR! of course im happy that yu tagged!(:

back from sending dear into army..sigh we shld have left earlier end up we were rushing and had to say rather hurried goodbyes..i was saddened even more by the sudden parting cos thot at least can say like proper bye take care all that..sigh. i felt a pang of grief overwhelming when we started rushing for the entrance of white sands cos like in a aplit second later dear wld be gone again..sigh. n i felt so so sad and down after we parted..kept looking back at each other and i waved each time trying hard to fight back the tears..i hate the feeling off like suddenly dear's gone..oh wells.7 days 7 days..he'll be back again..hope it'll pass quickly and we can see each other again..was great to see dear again for the past 2 days the longest time ive spent with dear since he went into army cos of my japan trip..haha. felt great to be in his arms once again..miss that feeling so much and now i truly treasure that feeling..im sure the week will pass quickly and dear would have had another good week at army and we'll be back with one another again!dear's sick..so im kinda worried abt him..hope he'll have a speedy recovery n not miss too many things lorz..he still has yet to show me how to fight..the stuff he learnt in combat class..heh.

yea japan was fun..not exactly gonna write out wad i did everyday..just know it was fun..haha. of course thot of dear alot alot too..alright i dun really feel like typing now..lots of emotions welling up inside of me now..i'll type when im better..

to the land of geishas!

2006-04-13T12:59:00.000+08:00

i'll be leaving for japan tonight! back on thurs morning.. take care everyone and to dear whom i'm sure will come here..I LOVE YU and take care when yu go back in on friday ya? im sure the week will past very quickly and we'll be able to meet 2 days after i get back ok? hugs yu tight. sorry if i cant meet yu tonight.. miss yu lots still ok?

last dinner before army

2006-04-04T21:52:00.000+08:00

sobs..had last dinner with dear today before dear goes into army at fish&co. watched last movie with dear too..alamak..last everything this is so upsetting..blows nose..

met dear after his dental appt today for lunch at jp foodcourt..frutti sundae thingy from the dessert store after main course and it ws really just ice cream with jelly, some whipped creama dn a cherry for $3.50..haha brilliant! bought tics for movie then walked arnd the mall and dear bought a light blue shirt which i personally felt was a rip off lehz but dear likes so yea..haha..went to arcade to kill time..played drum mania, daytona where i actually could have beaten dear if he didnt use underhand means by making me crash each time he changed my car view..haha. i think he's jealous how i can pperpatually drive at fourth gear and not slow down even when negotiating turns..wahaha.,and that i can drive with one hand on the wheel only..how cool la except no window for me to rest like in initial D..hee. oh yea played time crisis 3 too which dear obviously trashed me..i kept dying and had to keep putting in money to continue playing..dear used to be in air rifle tts why so zai i think..but guys ought to be better at such games anw..dear looks so serious when he plays time crisis..charming! haha. blushes.

caught the hills have eyes after that which i think is pretty good..basically abt this family who gets tricked into driving by the hills where cannibalistic mutants who survived a US nuclear bomb live and feed on humans and all..tho the casts are ppl ive nv seen i think plot and everything rather unpredictable at times and damn shocking..i screamed out loud in the cinema twice..yea embarrassing..its really gory too..and yea i think its a good show..i love thrillers so naturally i loved this one although i was highly shocked la but i mean that's the whole point right? heh. yea and i think the ending's rather cool too.. so go catch it everyone! well whoever reads my blog..

walked arnd summore after the show and we figured the entire mall recognised us and must have thot we're insane to be walking arnd even after so long..haha. bought 100grams of famous amos cookies to munch on..went back to arcade to play time crisis where dear and i both played till our wrists were aching..haha. then finally proceeded to fish&co for our scrumptuous dinner! licks lips.. i had the swordfish collar and dear the seafood platter for one..swordfish collar's dear's recommendation and i think its delicious! its like kfc fried chicken escept that its fish not chicken..haha. huge portion but really yummy.. pats dear on the shoulder..after dinner we had ice cream bomber for dessert which is somewhat like nydc mudpie except its from ben&jerry's..yupp..so yea both of us actually ate a hell lot we realised..haha. oh yes phototaking session while waiting for our food too.. haha a series of pictures where we were both supposed to look sad that dear's gg army soon but i somehow just cldnt look sad and there's like a progresssion in the series of pics..really embarrassing my failed attempts at trying to pose sad for the cam..too embarrassing to show but i suspect dear will show it to the whole world on his blog..bleah. grabs face in horror.. anyhow, it was a splendid day spent with dear once again! lovely company makes doing the commonest things extremely enjoyable..beams(:

talking abt army during dinner made me think abt how hard it really is for the guys actually..its like everytime i think abt how our r/s may change when dear enlists into the army.. i think abt how i will hafta get used to not being able to hear from him much less sms him often anymore, how i will hafta try to occupy myself so as not to miss him so much..i used to think it's harder for the girlfriend out here who has nothing to do and can only think of the boyfriend..but then i dunno how it suddenly dawned on me a few days ago that its really much harder for the guys cos one, they have to get used to their new life: not being close to civilization and somewhat losing contact with outside world and their loved ones, their fears and anxieties in camp; two, having to miss their loved ones. its like they hafta cope with two changing aspects of their lives while the girls only hafta deal with one. it suddenly seems awfully dumb of me to not realise such a simple logic any sooner..hmm. ponders.

have yu ever thought of running away from home? not that im thinking of but i have thought of? recently read in papers abt how teens nowadays choose to runaway for various reasons..i rmb in sec sch and maybe j1 i often thot of running away from home..i pictured the scenario in my mind and even thot of wad i'd bring along and who's house i'd run to..haha now that i think abt it all its really silly..but i must admit sometimes the frustration builds up once in awhile and the urge arises but nope..no running away for me..haha.

ok so some pics to end this entry!

at coffeebean..

at fish&co..

i think the last pic is hilarious! haha looks as if the entire world is spinning except dear and his cup of ice lemon tea..haha! alrighty bye bye!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!

2006-03-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

celebrated dear's birthday with him yesterday! my boy's a year older! whoo! haha. dear's parents had treated me to lunch the saturday before to celebrate dear's bday..yupp..i had made oreo cheesecake for him on wed night with a little help from my mom but i like made it from scratch and all..planned to surprise dear with it during dinner..the cake is not very appealing aesthetically and i was hoping it tasted good cos like the cake was brownish rather than yellowish-white with chunks of oreo..haha. so yea dear went for dim sum lunch with parents and grandma so met him in town..thot i was gonna be late and dear would arrive before me but luckily he didnt so i chionged to hotel phoenix which is right next to somerset mrt..that's where we're gonna have buffet dinner so went to the cafe and requested the waitress ot keep cake in the fridge first..i had told dear that i was gonna be in the loo cos then i'll be walkin to him in the same direction but then i think i took abit too long and dear had gone to the loo but he said he didnt see me..i actually claimed i was waiting to the auntie to finish cleaning the toilet..but yea dear said he didnt see me outside the loo waiting..so yea he said i must have gone to pass a fren his present right cos i had told him before that i have big present for him..so i just played along and dear somehow concluded i had passes cach his present and he kept askin questions the whole time even during the movie..haha. checked my phone for calls and smses and blah but cldnt discover anything..heh. anw we watched ice age 2! recently dear and i keep watching shows on the premiere day..so yea i found it rather entertaining and was utterly amused by dear's imitation of sid the sloth..like was the life! review said the show's more drama than comedy but i thot there were heartwarming and heartpounding moments..and hilarious moments too esp the squirrel that kept looking for his acorn! its hilarious and the noises it makes simply cracks the cinema up!overall, i still like the show tho supposedly more drama..its still and entertaining show to catch! yuppers..so yea after the show we were stuck in cine the whole time cos it was raining so we cldnt make our way anywhere else..thank goodness the rain had lightened by the time it was dinner so we could walk over to hotel phoenix..dear and i have concluded we're a food couple..haha always willing to spend and chionging buffets and good food..haha. buffet was quite a spread of different cuisines but i think i was expecting a larger selection considering the price and the hype dear had abt it..the prata was really good tho! sedap! licks my lips and makes the thumbs up gesture(: after dessert i took the cake out and i had alr told dear while we were taking dessert that i had a big cake for him cos he mentioned parents gonna buy cake for him too so thot i better tell him first lorz..could tell dear was a little disappointed la cos he was expecting cach to barge into the cafe with a cake..that was bought not homemade..and he thot it wldnt be that nice la..how very terrible of him! hee. turned out dear loved the cake! haha! tho its not so nice ot look at..its delicious i must say but we were both too stuffed to finish our slice..so we packed the rest of the cake and headed home..wad a wonderful day with my boy! third birthday of his that ive celebrated with him..hee..first bday was our second date in j1 if im not wrong..we ate swenson's..haha fond memories..hope i get to celebrate many more bdays with dear! I LOVE YU DEARR! (:

wow i realise i hadnt paragraphed till now..haha im lazy..anw dear just told me today that first time he gets to book out is on 14th april good friday a week after he enlists and unfortunately i'll be flying away to japan on 13th close to midnight..so im hoping dear will book out 13th night and maybe can see each other awhile before i see him another week later..really really hope so! mom actually reminded me that dear will book out night before la else i'll still be complaining now..how nice of her! haha but she was actually thinking of like dear and i can talk to each other on phone..i think she doesnt realise normally also can talk on phone at night..haha.

ok yupp so today began my journey to the faraway macpherson which turned out not-so-faraway where i met shortie to go collect our jeans..yay yay yay. its my first pair of levi's jeans actually..BEAMS(: but then i tried it just and it seems to be much tighter than when i tried it in the shops..how how how? im thinkin maybe cos i tried after dinner just now but like even the thigh part is tight which wasnt the case before! i cldnt have grown fatter by to much in say 2weeks right?! its suppose to shrink in length and expand in width a little after wash but if i wash cannot exchange size alr..bleah. maybe i shall try it again tmr morning..haha. hoping the jeans will expand overnight..maybe it was very squashed in the bag with me walking arnd with it entire day today..yes yes that must be it! hehe. so after collecting jeans went to meet mom at millenia walk foodcourt had lunch..the western food that rocks! portion uber huge..and the fries for some reason tasted like it was really made of potato..like yu can really taste the potato unlike other fries ive eating..not even those from macs..yupp then walked suntec, citilink, robinson's..went stamford house to choose pics..then headed to westmall where mom trimmed her hair..had dinner at jp where i spotted peter and kian! peter had smsed in the day to ask if i was at jp cos he and kian were there..they booked out of ocs to take pilot test but i wasnt there..so i said later if i go back there for dinner arrange to meet up but in the end while walking outta jp to swenson's i suddenly saw 3 army boys walking out too and one was wearing specs that looked like peter's! haha and the guy behind him looked like kian.. so i went up to them and yea! really them! so talked to them for awhile..they were on their way back to camp alr so how coincidental that i spotted them! haha. yupp had swenson's for dinner with mom and i tried the crunchie cone thingy for the first time..the guy packed it in dried ice so i could eat it only when i get home..so so so soooo nutty! im absloutely a nut fan! mom couldnt resist and took several bites off it too..haha.

ok i seemed to have typed a really long narrative compo..haha too tired to think of anything intelligent now so i think that will be all..oh ya read my horoscope from life! today and it said sth like i have to consider whether i really fit into this social ompany of is the pressure to fit in too great? hmmm seems to be really apt at this point in time..haha laughs it off..alrighty till my next entry!

oh my a week more and dear's going into army! screams!!!! haha who looks more like the home alone boy grabbing his face! :P

IVE A TWIN!!

2006-03-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

check this out! ive a twin! haha that's tourmaline with me the pic above..dont yu think we look rather alike? haha. dear first discovered it then on some closer scrutiny i think we really do look quite alike! haha..eyes, eyebags, nose, cheeks, smile also kinda similar! haha. to think i can actually find myself a twin after living for 18 years..heh. im highly amsued! (: tourm's gonna ask her bf if he thinks so too..hee.

anw yea went gym with dear today! its my first time like gg to a large gym..the only other time was at ying's condo..yupp was rather apprehensive la cos altho we've been talking abt gg gym tog since ages ago but like ive nv been to one and im so physically unfit so yea..but i decided to get my foot on it and since i hadnt exercised in a thousand years..might as well! it wasnt that bad cos weekday morning so yea managed to run on treadmill for 15mins, did free weights, cycled and attempted to do pull ups..haha. needless to say it was a miserable attempt! :P ohi almost died on the cycling machine..seroiusly..yupp n i tried two other machines too some lifting up with the hand one and a chest one..but by that time my arms dying alr so only did like five on each machine?! how lousy right..looks down in shame. but still it was a great experience..very fun! heh. that certainly will not be my last trip to the gym! hee..all thanks to my instructor chian! hehe. ate fish n chips for lunch/brunch..realise its also been a thousand years since i ate that..cos like when yu go restaurants like fish&co that's like the most bo hua thing to eat right? so yea..gobbled up my fish n chips..unglam.

after the gym session dear came over and we watched election..some hk triad show..best of all it's in cantonese which is the version ive been looking for! always best to watch hk films in cantonese(: must say i was a tad disappointed tho..cos i expected alot of action and all that but didnt really get much of that..abit confusing too tho i did understand the show and the ending also abit huh? i was like asking dear "end alr ah?" yupp maybe they'll have a part 2 like wad dear says cos the ending really quite open and seems o have other prominent characters not dealt with too much..yupp..shall let daddy watch..he's hardcore only watch cantonese version kind other than that all not nice..haha funny.

watched the 7pm show on chnU yesterday called ba1 li2 lian4 ren2..the female lead broke up with the male lead cos of family issues and all that very poor thing..she was sitting at her door crying and looking at their pics then looked at the stairs leading to her doorway..she said sth like "that's why i always insist on yu not walking me to my doorstep cos in times like this, i will imagine yu're standing at my doorway waving goodbye and smiling to me though yu're not there.." so i started thinking how i may also look back when im taking the escalator down at boonlay mrt and imagine dear's there smiling at me and waving goodbye..i think dear go army alr i'll start having those kinda emotions too.. sigh oh my why oh why must boys become man in the army..why cant they skip that..haha im asking stupid questions..hmmm will miss him so much la shit..

anw for those interested in the cheap yet real birks..check out the website http://www.footshopping.com its really cheap..too good to be true i tell yu..kiet cant stop askingme if there's any catch to it and all..haha too good to be true..irresistable(: but i still think too ex for a pair of slip ons..haha.

oh yea gg to have a ymcg tanning and chilling session at ying's place tmr..haha i have nice treats for each of them i cant wait to show the treats to them! heh. friday gg for some makeover thingy that comes free with the teens subscription..where i got cheated..im quite curious wad they'll do to my hair tho..quite interesting i guess since ive nv gone for such stuff before..tata! (:

hub club gathering..

2006-03-20T21:38:00.000+08:00

im back!

went zouk for mambo night on wed! rather fun..i think clubbing really depends on the company..there was dear, maria, ying, cach, joey, jem, zhiwen ( yu're super skinny!) oh and met anqi there too! my good old pri sch mate..heh. so yea clubbing quite standard la huh..drink and dance..yupp..

watched army daze with dear on friday..met him after gathering with some class ppl at ying's place..ate kfc and talked mainly abt army and uni stuffs..yupp so the play was at national library drama centre..im quite ulu la first time stepping into the new national library..its rahter nice i must say..gonna have this study lounge thingy where apparently food and drinks are allowed..finally a so called legal place to study in library..always kena chased by security guard when studying in je library..heh. ok anw the tickets were prat of dear's bday present and yea was very lucky to get seats right in the middle! cos cant choose the seats the system does it..so yea very fortunate(: the play was very funny! however too bad some of the casts for that day could have been better cos for certain characters they rotate performers so i think some characters if acted by the other performer may have been better! yupp.. i perslnally think kumar is the funniest! i felt he even outshined hossan leong lehz..his indian accent damn funny and the way he laughs is just hilarious..haha..cldnt stop laughin at kumar..hee..oh btw kumar was this indian recruit's girlfriend..very very funny! haha ok i think ive said that many times(:

ok yupps so now for yesterday..met up with the hub club girls for dinner at marche! or at least we were suppose to..from many many ppl sth like 10 we were down to 4..haha. tourmaline, weiqi, mingyun, me..haha. rachel and angie last min pangseh..and silly rachel actually told us to please please not be late! heh. but nonetheless it was still a very good dinner with the three girls(: miss them so so much still as fun and entertaining talking to them! beams(: weiqi and mingyun kept saying they cant imagine me dancing wanna see me dance..and weiqi even said i looked like chinese/modern dancer..omg like i so cannot make it in modern dance..haha. so talks of clubbing tog came abt partly cos they wanted to see me dance..haha funny. but i think it'll honestly be so awesome if we cld club tog..yea the hub club girls club tog..haha lame. it'll be so much fun! (: tourmaline mingyun and me wanna take accountancy/business so high likelihood we'll all be schoolmates in the near future! coolbeans man. these girls are seriously a crazy bunch to be arnd..oh yes i got my lip smakerssssss! thanks denise! heh. altho i dunno how to pay her..yeps they're so prettyyy! heh so pleased i cant bear to rip off the packaging..yet i cant wait to use them too! hee. oh ya weiqi said office ordering birks now..apparently arnd $56 cheapest kind i think plus shipping cost free if order above $200 so yea cheaper to order frm US directly i guess?

alright shall rest abit for now..haha seems to have been out quite abit..yu know i have this feeling ppl have been bitching abt me behind my back..i dunno..a hunch i guess..shrugs. i realise as we get older..interpersonal r/s get more complex as well..is that suppose to be common sense? i dunno cos i dont think things need to necessarily get more complicated as we grow up..i dun think i ever genuinely felt this confused abt ppl arnd me before..besides the stupid stuff i did during stupider times in sec sch..im really quite baffled and stunned..dunno if im thinking too much..hope i am then things wld seem alot better..sometimes i feel the harder i try not to be affected by things, the more they affect me..and when i did try to do sth abt it, it seems to work out for awhile..things seem to look better superficially but later on i will get the ominous feeling its all just surface cracks that ive been fixing..i guess sometimes ppl's mentality just dont change? humans are after all only human..

ok this is getting confusing too..haha. i shall end here then..toodles! (:

dear and me waiting for ARMY DAZE to begin

a group shot after MARCHE! (:

shopping spreeee

2006-03-06T16:06:00.001+08:00

i'm so pleased! feeling so accomplished cos my printer and speakers havent been working since i got my comp up again..feels so weird typing away on comp without any music..esp when i update..yupp.hee i just fixed everything ALL BY MYSELF! haha ok fine with a little help from the acer engineer..should have called acer much earlier instead of trying to troubleshoot by myself..got everything solved within 15mins..heh. both my mom and i have been desperately trying to fix them..haha how silly of us! its when im asked to fix the comp that i feel like im a dughter-cum-son cos the techinical stuff like comp usually done by sons wad instead im the one who does it in this household..thank goodness im not a total comp idiot or not gu niang till cannot fix anything..heh.i think my parents are lucky to have me..but of course i think im lucky to have them too..awww(:

anw, went to the career fair at suntec yesterday with dear..well i guess it was an eye opener i mean ive nv been to any career fair before..boy, im growing up! haha..guess it was a rather useful experience for me but more for dear..he got to speak to the ntu and stb ppl and i think it has helped him clear his doubts a little bit..and after discussing with his parents and i think he feels alot less confused and like he's been thrown off his path of life now..he's gravitated to the path of his he had previously mapped out for himself i guess..as for me i think it was reassuring? cos initially unsure if can get into accountancy and mom kept urging me to consider other options and stuff to fallback on just in case..guess feeling safer now and a little more confident of getting into my desired course now..i think once yu've set ur mind on sth it's really difficult to accept other options and if yu get anything less than that yu'll just feel damn lousy no matter how the second of third option may be just as good..yea..got almost the same grades as tourmaline..i think there's a high chance we'll both get into accountancy together! how exciting!(:

oh yea we kinda got cheated by the teens ppl at the fair..cos i signed up for 6mth subscription 18bucks and get a bag of goodies and a makeover at cover looks studio..cos wad the girl told us was that can have a simple one at the booth itself and another full one at the studio itself..turned out that we could only choose either one and when we went back to clarify with the teens girl she herself didnt know it was liddat and obviously she communicated the wrong info to us yet she didnt like ask us if we still wanted the subscription..the lesat she could do was to apologise but she didnt do that either.in my opinion she was acting blur..i was damn angry la..they thot wad we wanted was to split the photos so dear and i could each have a photo taken so in the end the guy just took a photo for dear without the styling and all and even told dear they'll contact him to collect the pics seven days later! wad rubbish. felt damn cheated la..cos i dont usually read teens and i kinda took it up cos wanted to let dear have the simple styling thingy and photo at the booth in the end only the full makeover at the studio which im still not very escited abt but cant waste it..sigh..wad a let down~grrr.

alright moving on..headed to bugis for our shopping spree!(: bought a denim skirt on the way back to mrt at citylink! 22bucks..rather good buy i think and made me feel happier after that teens episode..then while walking in between toilet and stall to try the skirt..MY SHOE BROKE. *faints. second pair that has borken in the month but i must say these shoes were with me for quite long alr..bleah..so i was kinda limping all the way to bugis cos stubborn me didnt wanna anyhow buy a pair of slippers but buy a pair that i like and will wear next time..so limp limp limp all the way thru out the shopping trip at bugis village too lehz..pathetic me. dear kept insisting that he has been to bugis village before even when we entered but i was so darn sure he hadn't la..only halfway thru the shopping trip did he admit that "actually hor..i think i've nv been here.." HA! there's FINALLY somewhere i've been and dear hadn't..heh. cos im like forever the ulu one..so main objective was to find a pair of slippers for me and find a sling bag and clothes for dear..felt great to see dear's eyes glitter in amazement as he saw the shops and the nice shirts and bags in some of the shops..walked for a long time but couldnt find anything the suited dear until when we were abt the leave did dear find a shop selling boardies for 15bucks! wa dear was how happy when he finally bought sth..and we also saw a shop selling the birkenstock lookalikes and they looked rather good but didnt have dear and my size so the salesgirl referred us to another shop where they might sell guy's sizes..so we went to that shop and i did manage to purchase a pair of white ones that suited my feet but they didnt have any for dear..so dear was rather sad haha and kept wanting to step on mine..silly boy..so we proceeded to go dig into ice monster and on our way there..i spotted the design dear wanted in another shop and we chionged into that shop! dear tried and he bought it! then he instantly so happy la poopie head. before that black face like anything..haha..

dear bought SHE cd too but dunno why real one 7bucks only..i spotted that one toO! beams(: yupp so we headed to ice monster all in for a real treat! ordered the mango one..cost $6.50 cos the auntie give us the big one too big la..we thot wad she meant by regular was the small one..how silly..anw it was damn good! with the sherbet right in the middle! haha but dear didnt wanna eat so much so that he can eat more real food during dinner..lousy..

after that went back bugis junction to have siam kitchen for dinner! whoopies. had the buffet thingy waaa our entire table was filled with food la..tho all small small portions but a bit of everything was really good and filing! haha..yummy(: and yea its certified by dear that my appetite has indeed grown after working in starhub..think cos we dont eat much thruout the day so we eat alot during mealtimes and its not only me k..dear was surprised my appetite almost matched his despite having eaten more mango at ice monster than him..hee. im gonna become fatfat..oh bother. walked around and took long bus ride home after that walked round and round bugis junction..and i really mean round and round the building looking for the bus stop only to realise it's across the road where we first started..so tired we fell asleep on the bus..great to have been able to spend the day with dear..he said its like army next time where we only get to spend weekends together..i think so too..nods. had a great time! (:

oh yes i think i seem to be spending alot of money nowadays..bought bag that day too..bleahh.i better start spending less and save up! for myself and for dear's bday as well!

alright so much for wad ive done..i must say i do regret not working harder in jc..i know yu guys will say ur results not good enuff izzit wad else yu want?! but it really isnt good enuff for me..i feel that i should have done better..made a mistake of not seeking help for physics but instead trying to save my own rotting arse..like alr rotting still dun wanna help wana let it rot further..ok that's gross. but yea sigh i think its a lesson learnt..to speak up and address the problem when there is a problem.i pretty much tried to ignore the prob and kept telling myself i can do it..i can manage by myself.. sure can do well during As as long as i work hard at it..turns out that i did not address the root of the prob and the fact that my foundation wasnt strong..that's why i just didnt get the concepts and everything..i guess too last minute effort that i had put in as well..hmm this applies to other aspects in life as well huh? say in r/s..tho the truth may be cruel its sometimes, ir maybe always, better not to ignore the prob and pretend it doesnt exist struggling to keep it alive by yourself..should always face the prob head on, try to work on it and improve tog as a couple and things may just turn out to be better than expected.. but dont get me wrong..everything's good between dear and me! haha. hmmm..yea so far these are the two aspects in my life which i think it can apply..r/s with everyone in general, but i guess in a few years' time when i secure a job i should rmb wad i typed today too..

alright that's all..peaceout everyone! life's good if yu keep it simple..like my blog! haha..ok lame..

21st month with hong!

2006-02-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my 21st month with dearr! beams(: had a fantastic day out with dear! almost 12hrs spent tog just relaxing and having fun..not squeezing with crowds in shopping malls! it was so so fun(:

met at clementi at 9 and took long train ride to pasir ris! dear gave me present while waiting for train..he bought estebel body soap for me from his mom! hee lavender scent..the one he uses..so xianggg..and now i can smell like my darling!!! haha..i like his smell so much! im not psycho or anything..just like his smell lorz..hee..and the card he gave me is so cute!! and funny..heh.

reached pasir ris took bus then the entire bus all couples abt 3 or 4 including us..haha..so excited once we reached downtown east!!!the start of our little escapade! been looking forward to this day the entire week!! really really!! HEE..went cheers to buy some food to bring to beach..kaya bread, mineral water, tuna snack, grapes and cleo to read! we were saving our tummies for sakura at night! so we walked to beach and finally settled down at a spot..took out the mat dear bought and was so pleased when we could fit comfortably on the mat..haha..started eating grapes and all..sat there awhile just enjoying the breeze beofre reading cleo and eating our other food..saw another couple sitting on their mat too and we started to realise what fools we were sitting in the sun cos they were like under a tree..dear la wanna tan tan tan..now so painful..haha the only part i like is when my cheeks become redddish..cos then i dont look pale..heh. i think flushed cheeks are nice..some girls have it naturally i think very healthy looking..ok anw i loved the feeling of being able to just sit there enjoy the breeze, talk abt stuff, sleep a lil at the beach and just letting time slip past..didnt hafta watch the time at all..it almost seemed like we sat there forever..such a great feeling..telling ding how much i love him once in a while..we must do that sometime again ok dear? except this time sit in the shade..haha..oh speaking of shade..when we were abt to leave this girl came to the beach alone to tan..and the funny thing is i thot she was malay alr qutie dark still tan..she went right up to the sandy part of the beach, plonked herself down there, took off her clothes leaving her bikini and lay there under the scorching sun..i think quite dangerous lehz..anw we took so many pics there! we both love to take photos so much..heh.ding's a really special guy i feel..most guys like my dad dislike taking photos..getting them to take photos like so difficult liddat but ding sometimes takes even more than me la..haha..and i think most guys would go for the engineering kinda courses but ding on the otherhand prefers business, pr and meeting ppl..the time at the beach was realyl the best outing ive had with ding! i just love to sit around, chill and not have to worry abt the time at all..i love this kinda outings! and i love kaihong too..hehe.

after that we changed and went back to downtown east itself..walked pass thsi manicure place and wanted so much to do but decided since its our 21st we should do things tog rather than i do my nails and dear sit there watch me..yupp so we walked arnd a lil before deciding to bowl..which is dear's forte..the bowling shoes looked really funny..heh so cartoon but qutie cute la..the stick stick kind summore no need tie laces..and ya i quite suck la first game scored 60+ qutie good for me alr lorz..then dear 100+ as usual..his posture very nice the ending pose esp..haha..as for me i anyhow anyhow la..tried to follow dear's right-left-right-left thingy..but still got longgang sometimes..ok several times..heh. oh and my thumb nail chipped after i bowled the first two balls..not that painful in fact not really painful but quite scared to see my nail being peeled off..aiyo..so ironical..like i wanted to do my nails not too long ago then it broke and i hafta wait even longer before i can go do manicure..dear promised to pay for me..heh.luckily dear had plaster if not really dun need bowl le..like got abit of phobia after that afraid another part of the nail will chip again..now my nail's so ugly..eergh..what an eyesore!! dear striked quite a few times lorz while my score so sucky..i act striked once yu know! haha so pleased..

after that went arcade..played the shooting game where i kept losing and i became angry..hehe..sorry dear..after that ok la then played other stuff and the stooopid oil tank game cheat our money la..tried to catch soft toys as usual i always seem to do that when i go arcade with dear nowadays..dunno why but failed to catch any..only tried twice la..then after that it was SAKURA TIME!!!

haha i'm such a small eater deat ate so much more than me and stuffed me with food too..but everything i cannot finish he eat..haha..so funny..dear was so so so red plus the red singlet he was wearing made him look even redder! cheeks also red red..so cute! i was red too but not as red as dear..means not as cute as dear also la..haha..i must say the oreo and tiramisu cheesecake at sakura is damn nice! i liked the sashimi, tepanyaki chicken, potato salad and the dian xin..yupp there was fake sharks fin too..some of the stuff like the sharks fin and hotplate hao kan bu hen hao chi tho..after sakura leftfor home lorz..while walking to bus stop could see stars in the sky..so nice! dear was just saying he wanted to tell me stuff under the starry sky and he thot only at park can see stars and said no stars dowan tell me then moment we stepped out into carpark i saw the beautiful starsss! haha..fated for dear to tell me those mushy stuff la..haha..but dear so funny he said them in a cute voice cos he paisehh..haha..so funny didnt think dear would be paiseh lehz..mwarks yu darl! (:

that more or less wrapped up our day out..dear kept saying we're a hot couple..only temporarily cos our skin was all hot from the sun burn..haha..took summore pics on the train but i fell asleep on resting head on dear's shoulders..i really fell asleep on the long way back but dont think dear slept as well as i did cos he had nth to lie on..poor boy but guy liddat de ma..heh.

yuppyupp..dear we must have more of such outings ok!! do yu hear me! it was such a good day spent with dear..thank you dear for all you've done for me the past 21 months..you've been a really sweet boy and i love you very much! hugs tight(:

and yea i havent exactly learnt how to upload pics yet so refer to dear's blog and our combined blog for the pics! (: some are really nice and sweet i think..heh.but some can see my silly chiny chin chin..heh.

alright that's all! take care yu all!

escapade!!

2006-02-17T20:01:00.000+08:00

i have a date with dear tmr! haha we're gg downtown east and pasir ris park for an escapade!!!!! haha so exciting i want wait for tmr..so long nv go out and play alr..i think its gonna feel liberating..haha..HAPPY 21ST DARLING!!!!! hugs yu..

and yea btw ive resigned from my job at starhub..last day 1st march..

yupp and yea after surfing the ntu and nus websites i think ive pretty much set my mind on accountancy..studying sciences in such detail will get intolerable i think and law seems a whole load of memorising..yea..psychology seems complex..so yea after wad my uncle said accountancy being too common i think i'll still go for that..yupp..i heard results out on 3rd march..dunno if true but should be somewhere there la right?

alrighty that's all for now..take care folks! and yea thanks tourmaline! you're one hot babe! haha..

ive been tagged too!

2006-02-12T22:24:00.000+08:00

1. the tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover.need to mention the sex of the target.

2. tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their comments saying they've been tagged.

3. if tagged a 2nd time; no need to post

1) he must be humorous and entertaining not the quiet and si1 wen2 type..yea i'm quite chatty so quiet dates wont do for me..so definitely must be able to talk alot to my perfect lover and nv run outta topics..nv a dull moment with him arnd and he can somehow make me smile no matter how shitty i may be feeling..and i'm very comfortable to be myself when i'm with this guy..

2) must be sensitive to my feelings and know what i'm thinking and what i'll do in what situations..like if i'm sad i'll aspect him to know that i'm sad tho it may not be that obvoius..he sould somhow be able to detect my moods..and must know me well enuff to anticipate what my next step of thought will be in whatever circumstances..

3) looks arent that important a factor..BUT my perfect lover CANNOT be skinny..cos cannot make me feel fat ma..haha..not that he must be fat..he must be bigsized and muscular..like big big can protect me from anything that kinda feeling cos i tend to get insecure sometimes..i need to feel safe with him arnd and i cant feel safe with a skinny guy so not the tall skinny type for me..yea then big big means nice to hug too..heh.i think it feels the nicest when being hugged so a huggable guy is a must! while six pacs are nice..i think having abit of tummy nice also..nice to touch and lie on..heh..i like arms that are big and nice to lie on like can be both pillow for me to lie and rock to bash ppl when they bully me.haha! ok yea so so much for emphasising on the fact i dont dig skinny guys..heh.

4) yea my ideal lover's smile must be able to charm and mesmerise me..i want that when my perfect lover smiles..i will smile looking at his smile too..heh.

5) this guy must must be filial and family oriented cos being an only child i'm quite close to my family so i wld want that in my ideallover as well..

6) he must be musically inclined and like to sing cos i like to sing too! i'm quite old fashion kind la so my guy crooning a love song to me with that look in his eyes like only i mattered to him in the whole wide universe at a beach under that stars so makes me melt..heh.

7) ideal guy must be fun loving and yet know when to be responsible and tone down..not just all play or all serious..i do think a guy can look cute when he's all serious and concentrating on his work..heh. so yea must be sensible, responsible yet fun and full of ideas!

8) last one, i cannot tolerate infidelity!!! so my perfect guy has to be devoted and loyal to me..not to sound possessive here but i really cannot tolerate infidelity and dishonesty..oh yes he must be so darn honest with me..even if its sth i might not like to hear..

dearr tagged me..somehow reminds me of that love conceirge show..haha how jacelyn tay was always in search of her 'wan mei qing ren' aka perfect lover..heh..ok so that's it! i rmb being asked to describe my ideal lover back in mg too and that time i had a hard time thinking of the so called 'conditions'..but this time no sweat man! cos had dear in mind when i was typing this all the while..haha..more like describing kaihong..heh.like everything just cross-reference to ding..hee.i feel so lucky to have met such a great guy who showed me what love is and taught me how to love..i must say i'm camn fortunate to have found such a wonderful first relationship and i really hope this first love will blossom into a great future ahead too (:

ok so ive to tag eight other ppl..i tagg..cach, tourmaline, weiqi, chern chieh, alicia, manda, cat and i dont care i tag ding again cos ive got no more frens who have blogs..yupp go do! (:

first real post!

2006-02-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

heyy therre! new blog new blog! hehe..decided to switch to blogspot since it seemed easier to use and like rather easy to upload pics and the skins seemed nicer..haha..so pleased..my blogskin nice? nice? (: i spent like damn long looking for a satisfactory blogskin..wanted to have sth damn attitude at first but cldnt find anything nice so decided to go simple..saw this skin with dear and agreed its nice so i used it..yupp..

alrighty so yea today nth much at work call rate was low for some reason and they gave us one hour break instead of the usual 45mins..mobile side was having high call rate i heard even till the time i was leaving at 9..yupp..hmmactually i received the most number of mobile calls today maybe my line was actually opened to mobile side..ahh! maybe! i just realised cos tourmaline said her line was open to mobile calls for awhile..but the thing is i didnt know so i ended up trasferring the calls over to mobile..not suppose to work lidddat lehz..hee oops! blurr me..but i didnt know wad..anw tmr call rates bound to surge..oh bother i wanna ask alvin abt my swopping of shift..if tmr so busy how to ask..eergh..oh yea anyone reading this has off day on sat 18th feb can swop shift with me? i need off on 18th! i have b2 shift on 18th! anyone anyone? pls do me a favour??

so yea this week d shift all the way..siann..oh brought my own food for dinner today! the canned curry chicken and rice..SOOOO DELICIOUS OMG..i can feel myself salivating as i type this..omg so so nice..hee..tmr i shall try the chicken cutlet rice..oh my im actually feeling hungry now..shit i need to get some food..

oh yes i had a 23 min call yesterday night..haha my longest phonecall as yet..and today i was suppose to transfer call to shi general enq but ended up trasferring to cable ge i think and jane who's sitting opp me picked up..then i started giving her cust details and all that but i was wondering why she sounded so loud and clear and nearby..then jane stood up and "uh huh..uh huh" and looked at me with a ridiculous face..only then did i realise i was speaking to her..so malu!

yupp anw dear's working at suntec area now..says he opened his eyes to so many many shops at citylink..todat he cought weilian cd and cd for guan how for his gf..why nv buy for meee..pouts:( why nv buy sth for me..or maybe he bought but nv tell me right right? hee.. ok hope so:) lalala..ok i think this entry is long enuff..till my next entry..do tag and give me comments on my new blog!

peaceout*

2006-01-30T11:44:00.000+08:00

hello! (: